“Please be patient with me. Sometimes when I’m quiet it’s because I need to figure myself out. It’s not because I don’t want to talk. Sometimes there are no words for my thoughts.”
— Kamla Bolanos
This.
honestly sometimes i miss being in a relationship for the genuine love and care i get showered with. but then i remember the moral and/or other restraints. i cant $h without making them cry, i cant ☆v3 myself without them telling me its bad, i cant hu44t myself in one way or another without being scolded. i cant sleep around, i have to be nice and sweet and kind and loving 24/7, i cant lash out or have an episode or im abusive. i cant just run of without scaring them and hurting them by leaving. its like having a needy pet. you cant just do whatever you want and leave it, because now that thing is your responsibility. its so tiring at times and now im free <3
“You only have so much emotional energy each day. Don’t fight battles that don’t matter.”
— Unknown
From Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another by Jan Heller Levi (via hush-syrup)
It’s just kinda hard living with a brain that wants nothing to do with u idk
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the only pro to having bpd extreme mood changes is that i’m sad/angry/insane for only a few minutes, and then i’m completely fine.
“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”
I hate myself so fucking much I just don't want to feel anything anymore
“Forgive me if I don’t talk much at times. It’s loud enough in my head.”
— Unknown
I've just realised I've stayed alive for people who don't even fucking respect me, what a sick joke
“You can only grow if you’re willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.”
— Brian Tracy