losing people is so interesting bc like. no i don't want to speak to you ever again. yes i think about you on your birthday.

Sometimes there’s nothing to go back to but you still miss it so much

Why is it that you always feel ur prettiest on the most accidental and insignificant days? It’s never on the day of ur birthday, or graduation, or some big party. It’s always a random Sunday or a Tuesday evening where u look at urself and think wow I look ? beautiful ? today. And then u go to bed or watch tv or do homework and the ‘good day’ is just wasted

Natalie Wee, from Practice makes perfect

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I highly believe 2020 is going to be a great year for everyone. It’s like a new chapter, a new era. This upcoming year will be full of abundance, new relationships, new opportunities, positivity, and wealth. I guarantee it. 

— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via amargedom)

there’s a misconception that grief only happens when we lose people. this is not true. we can grieve circumstances, relationships, missed opportunities. in fact, sometimes when you find yourself plagued with waves of emotion from sadness to melancholy you may be grieving yourself. the version of yourself that you might have been if things had been different, or if only you had said something, or if someone had stood up for you.

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

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dating is weird (2019)

HAPPY FALL

me @ myself: why is she doing this to herself

september will be kind. september will be magical. september will bring the missing energy. september will be working towards our goals and self. september will be a month full of growth.