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@flocksis

He/they/it - currently over 18 - god im so fucking tired
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Potential Design Assets by Joshua Jenkins for Disco Elysium

Not a lot of people have seen these I think and the ones about the pale are the most interesting in my opinion so maybe others will find them interesting as well!

I am so fucking normal about entroponetics.

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also these from here

One of my favorite tropes is character with a nasty toxic personality who tries very hard to do the right thing anyway

I like my protagonists sad, tired, bitter, fully convinced they will never get the recognition they deserve, but they still gotta get up in the morning and be a good person

parents are so crazy because they can say the most fucked up shit to you when your brain is forming and it sets the tone for your whole adult mind set and then they forget about it the next day

So I just made a joke that "more women should poison their husbands" to my cool boss and then immediately found out that he got divorced because he was poisoned by his ex-wife

I'm apologizing profusely and he's like "oh it's fine it was funny" and then he offhandedly mentions that his next girlfriend tried to poison him also

Yeah this is going to break containment babe.

war and murder are awful. killing another human being is a horrible thing to do. swords and guns are cool as fuck. these two beliefs exist simultaneously in my mind and do not conflict at all

can often come together in one person but not same not always together:

  • high support needs
  • level 3 autism
  • no/can’t mask
  • nonverbal/nonspeaking
  • intellectual disability

can also often come together in one person but not same not always together:

  • low support needs
  • level 1 autism
  • high masking
  • speak and/or lose speak but speak okay otherwise
  • high IQ

so

  • high support needs =/= level 3 autism
  • low support needs =/= level 1 autism
  • nonspeaking =/= level 3 autism
  • nonspeaking =/= high support needs
  • semispeaking =/= level 2 autism
  • low support needs =/= high masking
  • intellectual disability =/= high support needs
  • etc

again many often do come together. more often than not. but not always

not have strong feeling about autism awareness vs acceptance because , too many people not know that people like gwydion exist let alone how treat . so need both awareness and acceptance .

easy say people " aware " about high needs children ( but : many still awful at understand and help ) . not so much for adults . and those who do know , assume adult exactly same as child , " just bigger body " .

so will force people to be aware and accept . that some adults like gwydion fuck and talk crude and exist as adults . even as nonverbal AAC user . even with trouble understand world . even when need supervision and help .

awareness still important for many .

If you don't judge people for saying "sorry adhd brain" in public, then don't judge people for saying "sorry schizophrenia brain" in public

If you correct people when they misuse the term "ocd" then you need to correct people when they misuse the terms "psychotic", "delusional", "hallucinating" and "schizophrenic"

If you don't stare, laugh at or fear a stranger in public flapping their hands, then you need to do the same for a stranger in public talking to someone who isn't actually there.

If you give a trigger warning to sensitive topics then you need to give a trigger warning to unreality and false information as a prank.

If you want to normalize medication like antidepressants you also need to normalize medications like antipsychotics.

If you don't like people without your disorder joking about it online and report it as harassment, then you need to do the same for the tons of nonschizophrenics making "schizoposting" memes to make fun of us.

Just please include schizo-spec and psychotic acceptance into your mental illness/neurodiversity acceptance. We are part of your community whether you like it or not. We are constantly stigmatized, misrepresented and made fun of. We do what we can to help you, please return the favor.

Mental illness/neurodiversity acceptance is an ongoing action. We will get nowhere in the long run if we split the community into the "in" group and the "out" group. We could all accomplish so much if we worked together. But you need to include the "weird" people that don't fit into your aesthetic and don't fit the social norms.

Us psychotics and schizo-specs have been struggling for years and have been the only people fighting for ourselves while the people we plead to barely see us as human. If you are nonpsychotic and nonschizo-spec, you can help us more than you realize. Please include us and stick up for us the same way we have been including and sticking up for you.

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Many say “oh youre higher needs higher lv autism? you just communicate differently n that valid!!”

but, often see ppl often walk around or boil down to “if communicating At All then good”, what if cant? what if when Yom isnt thinking, communicating differently, or expressing At All?

unable to communicate doesnt equal less value. doesnt mean less human. often for self, we dont feel conscious. we often stare off or look at nothing and nothing at all in brain. lot of times we dont think, and other times think and daydream lots, but still no respond. lot of times cant even use own aac when needed most.

dunno how to describe for us, it just nothing

and not responding or doing anything at all doesnt equal ignoring you or “no”. often do want something but body does Nothing, so it assumed “no”.

For Yom, we often Are in our own world. perception of world so different. no less human. Not made for your world. Dont think or breathe same

still deserve love, even if not pleasing you. Been told many bad things because brain don’t communicate at all lot times. been assumed “bad person” because dont respond

This is all the time, not just selective mutism for I

everyone different, we are not fact for all. always ask when comfortable.

for us, it best to not force us to do anything, or keep asking “what wrong? what u want me to do?” when not responsive, cuz often can’t respond at all. it best to just make us feel safe n comfortable. so sick of ppl talking so much

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Respect and support all psychotic people.

Respect and support psychotic people in psych wards.

Respect and support psychotic people in prison.

Respect and support psychotic people who use drugs.

Respect and support psychotic people who can't hide their symptoms.

Respect and support psychotic people who are homeless.

If you say you respect and support psychotic people no one is exempt.

If you are disgusted, scared of, or laugh at psychotic people on the street that talk to themselves you cannot say you respect and support psychotic people.

Just because a psychotic person is less privileged, and less socially acceptable to you, does not give you a pass to be sanist.

This shouldn't have to be said but every human deserves basic respect.

People who are mentally ill, have no money, have no support, can't hide their symptoms, make bad choices and don't fit into the social norms, are not any less human than anybody else.

hey ablebodied people please teach your children not to swerve in front of mobility aid users. We might accidentally hurt them (my power wheelchair does not stop quickly and the bones in your child's foot are small and breakable) or they might accidentally hurt us (someone who's already having trouble balancing is likely to fall if they have to stop short). You don't have to teach them everything about physically disabled people but these are basic safety things that can make the difference between a cordial interaction and 1-2 very injured people. This also goes for touching mobility aids without permission, we may not notice the child or they may do something harmful before we can stop them.

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