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Truth and Lies

@fictionalized / fictionalized.tumblr.com

Genderqueer nerd just doing my thing, trying not to fuck it up too badly. 41. This blog is generally backstage operations and personally ramblings. For geekiness, look to Nudity and Nerdery. For toplessness, look to the Lord and repent your sinful ways before the fires of damnation claim your very soul. Or ask me for a link to wherever I'm posting that sort of thing now, whatever.

3 types of self soothing thoughts

  1. Validation - it’s ok that I hurt and want to feel better
  2. Reassurance - I can handle this pain, even though it hurts and I don’t like it
  3. Perspective taking: I’ve had bad days like this before, and my record of making it through them is 100%. I can also remember my better days, and know I’m not always hurting this much 

One of the Diamondbacks pitchers was wearing these cleats tonight....

"There is something wrong with me," they think, as they look at their schedule and debate if they could run a Kingmaker campaign...

IZombie — Season 1   {Sentence Starters}

  • “You’re lucky you’re not dead.“
  • “Jeez, that pause was like a year!“
  • “I was a dead, alabaster BADASS!”
  • “I can choose to be a decent person.“
  • “I think we’re gonna surprise some people.“
  • “That’s my threshold. That’s the soul crusher.“
  • “I’m having a hard enough time pretending I’m alive…”
  • “I mean, I don’t even need to be this attractive. It’s just icing.“
  • “If you live each day like it’s your last, someday you’ll be right.”
  • “I wanted to do something with my life. I wanted to help people.“
  • “I thought shutting him down was noble. But what if there is hope?“
  • “And don’t worry, ‘cause I’m gonna kill them. I’m gonna kill them all.“
  • “It’s so focused on what it desires, reason becomes background noise.“
  • “That’s the thing about pain, isn’t it? Really feeling it it doesn’t make it stop.”
  • “I can see that some life is like a virus. One that can’t be allowed to spread.“
  • “I like that you always keep it under 15 syllables. It gives us a good rhythm.“
  • “I’m mildly afraid of heights, but I would not hesitate to climb that mountain.”
  • “Daddy issues. Megalomania. Greed. Wow, that felt really good to get off my chest.“
  • “Answer me straight, or I’m gonna take you on a guided tour through a world of pain.”
  • “If it’s what you thought I wanted, then you don’t know me as well as you think you do.“
  • “When you die, life goes on without you. If you’re among the living dead, you’re around to watch.“
  • “Even if it’s dim and somewhere in the nebulous future, it’s a hope I need in order to survive.“
  • “It’s probably wrong that every time I see a dead body, I think, ‘What the hell am I doing with my life?’“
  • “I am too hungry right now to work out if you’re joking or not. Your skull just turned into an animated ham.“
  • “When I’m hungry, I forget my lunch used to be a person. When the hunger’s bad, I forget I used to be one, too.“

Thought I’d try something a little different for a February tarot challenge. No need to do something everyday. Do as much or as little as you like. 

Shuffle + Search - is a technique where you shuffle, turn the deck over, and look for a specific card. Then you read the cards on either side of it as significant in some way. Can be read intuitively. 

Pull Out + Draw - remove the card in question, shuffle, then pull 3 cards. Can be read intuitively. 

Card Study - pull out the card and jot down notes of your observations, what it reminds you of, or journal on it generally. 

Feel free to download the bingo card, cross things off, and upload it so you can show off what you did at the end of the month. Hit me up with any questions and I hope you enjoy! 

Just fascinated by some of the playlist titles Spotify has for me. https://www.instagram.com/p/CoBnuhGLIlZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Stolen meme!

the rules are: go to pinterest and type in "*your name* core aesthetic" and create a mood board with the first 9 images

Lot of dark academia, and that middle image is just perfectly placed.

Technically supposed to tag people to do it, but just go ahead and consider yourself tagged if you like.

Anonymous asked:

Is techsgtjenn no longer on Tumblr? I hope they're doing well

So Tumblr zapped her blog back over the summer. She appealed it but it took a while to get it reinstated, so she just never went back to it. She's pretty busy with school right now.

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tfw someone BRAZELY reaches out to you purely for gossip fodder. at least be subtle bruh.

Look, where I come from, "Hey, what's going on that you'd be embarrassed and other people would be scandalized to hear about?" is a PERFECTLY normal way to greet someone, okay?

Anonymous asked:

Marion wayne was a draft dodger in wwii and a giant pussy. Gary cooper was probs the better western star. High noon, yo! Im not really a western fan, though, more sci fi

So you're a racist transphobe who also wants to insult a dude with misogynistic insults. Fascinating specimen. Sorry to hear you missed the inherent messaging of basically every good sci-fi out there.

@inneskeeper, do they brew idiots in a lab for your anons, or is there some sort of like training facility where they perfect the dumb opinions before releasing them into the wild?

Diictodon, who survived the most brutal extinction event on Earth, is happy to see you made it to the other side of that year. Eat well and rest for a bit, you deserved it

Diictodon is happy to see you made it again, to the other side of 2021 this time! And look, the ginko is regrowing! Eat well and rest for a bit, you deserved it

Hey! Diictodon is happy to see you made it to the other side of 2022! Here’s a nice tuber for you. Eat well and rest for a bit, you deserved it

Life pro tip! When you go grocery shopping, buy tall vegetables so the audience knows what you’re doing! https://www.instagram.com/p/CmkH18IS8OF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I hate this

something something because we all watch so much TV we’ve started to take on as our own the mannerisms of people performing before an audience

we’re playing to an audience that isn’t there, acting for an imaginary laugh track

Nah, I’m my own laugh track, and, buddy, I’m hilarious.

I’m sorry—I posted that without thinking of the impact my words could have. I don’t actually hate this or you, your post just reminded me of something that’s been bugging me for a while. Honestly, yeah, this is funny, and certainly a more fun mindset with which to approach grocery shopping.

My apologies!

No worries, I completely understand how that feels. Sometimes stuff just surfaces when it doesn't need to. I appreciate the apology, hope you're having a good day!