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okay so i'm in the process of rereading pjo and i just got to botl and i want to talk about my girl annabeth. i feel like a good majority of the fandom mischaracterization of annabeth comes from botl, specifically because she was rude to rachel throughout the book, and then everyone just assumed that because she wasn't nice to rachel she must be a bitch inherently, on top of being this fucking emotionless shell of a person, which is wild to me because i don't know how her being rude to one (1) girl automatically discredits everything she's done in the past three books. i feel like it stems from a complete misunderstanding of why she was rude to rachel. let's make this clear: she wasn't rude to rachel because rachel was a potential love interest; she was rude to rachel because she was scared.

everyone she's ever loved has been taken from her in some way: her mom being absent because she's a goddess and not really wanting anything to do with annabeth; her feeling like her dad and stepmom didn't want her around (losing her real family); thalia, her found sister, sacrificing her life to save annabeth, and then leaving her again to join the hunters; luke betraying the camp, but more importantly betraying annabeth on a much deeper level because he was her only family. he promised her that he would be there for her, no matter what, and then he leaves her, just like everyone else. even grover left her, in a way, because he went out to search for pan and wasn't around. the only close person who hasn't left her at the point of botl? percy.

but she knows about the prophecy at that point, so she's spent the better part of three years resigning herself to the fact that her best friend is going to die when he turns sixteen and there's absolutely nothing she can do to stop that. she's spent the better part of three years trying not to fall in love with him because it would only hurt worse when the time comes. if i had to bet on it, the reason she was thinking about joining the hunters in ttc is because if she isn't around him (and also can't because she's a hunter), she won't become more attached to him than she already is. if she separated herself from him, it would hurt less. except here's the thing: by that point, she couldn't make herself do that. she couldn't make herself willingly give up percy yet, because it might not have been him. if i had to guess, when thalia came back, annabeth stopped worrying about percy dying---just for a little while---because she thought that thalia was going to be the child of the prophecy after all. so when thalia became a hunter, she was mentally prepared to lose thalia again. but that means that every fear she had about percy being the prophecy kid before thalia came back to life resurfaced full force, and now suddenly annabeth has a year and a half left with him when she thought that she might have longer. so despite the thought of her joining the hunters to prevent herself from getting too attached, she hadn't metnally come to the point where she was ready to give up the small hope that he would live.

which bring us now to botl. like i said, i'm just now rereading the book (and i'm only on chapter 1 but i started thinking about annabeth and here i am). annabeth is mean to rachel because she's terrified of losing percy too soon. sure, at this point she knows the prophecy is his, she knows come next summer she probably won't have him anymore---but that's just it: next summer. she's preparing herself to lose him in a year, not immediately. so when someone comes along that presents a way for her to lose percy, of course she gets scared, and she gets defensive about it. it's not even the fact that rachel was a potential love interest, it's more so the fact that rachel was a mortal, and not part of their world. if percy was with rachel, there's a good chance he'd try to leave the magical world behind, and, more importantly, leave annabeth behind, which she wasn't ready for yet.

hell, that's exactly what ended up happening in the beginning of tlo! annabeth wasn't upset because he was spending time with rachel, she was upset because he was spending time in the mortal world rather than her world and, in her mind because of all of her past experiences being abandoned, that translates to "percy is leaving her," and it was way earlier than she thought, and she wasn't ready. so what does she do? she tries to protect herself. she puts walls up and tries to act cold and distant because she's coming to terms with the fact that she's already lost him. she's already lost him.

and like, was she jealous of the fact that rachel was a love interest? probably, yeah. but i think it's also just important to know that there's something way deeper to it. annabeth isn't being a bitch for the sake of being a bitch, and she's not just jealous of rachel because she was a girl that liked percy. she was upset because he was getting further and further away right in front of her. he was leaving way quicker than she was prepared for, so a lot of the stuff she said to rachel came from a place of fear of losing percy, and anger at rachel for trying to pull him into the mortal world, effectively leaving her behind and adding another person to the list of people she loves that have left her.

I hate the way the Greek campers were viewed in hoo like these literal kids who made up a grand total of 40 (maybe 100 max with hunters + party ponies + satyrs) defeated an army that consisted of hundreds possibly thousands of monsters on their own including a couple of rouge titans and Kronos who was their leader. And won. Don’t get me wrong the Romans destroyed the Palace and all which was probably filled with their remaining resources but there were hundreds of them including adults who had retired after a decade of experience. And the army they fought was probably smaller cause everyone was off at New York in the main fight so give the Greek campers their due respect cause not only did they win, they pulled off the impossible

even if some people prefer dark percy or bamf percy or whatever, i love how we all as a fandom collectively agree that percy no matter which shape or form is a WONDERFUL big brother. yes, he can choke people with their own blood but he also makes the best bubble baths with floating water figures for his lil sister

speaking of things that percy did or did not do bc of annabeth… he didn’t reject immortality for her either. not her specifically, anyway. he didn’t look back at her bc he wanted confirmation of her feelings and her feelings only, he looked back at her on instinct bc she is a reminder of everything that awaits him at home, at camp, everything that he is and stands for. everything that he would be giving up by accepting immortality. it’s not about her in particular, but the way she is tethered to a world that he is a part of, as well. they’re not self-absorbed lovers, you know

@howelljenkins yeah like i think this is why their depiction in hoo has always bothered me. they seem kind of caught up in their own little two-person world when they were never like this in pjo. i think their friendship is a very practical one in a sense bc they both understand the stakes of their circumstances and they would never ask the other to prioritise their relationship over a quest, for example, or the well-being of other people. like at the end of the day they’re demigods and their friendship is borne out of a shared sense of duty, among other things. this is why annabeth leaves percy on mount st. helens when he tells her to and they focus on the war effort instead of having alone time or obsessing over the other person like other fictional pairings. it’s what makes them different from a lot of other characters placed in their position (bc there’s a tendency to let the romance subsume everything else which is why romantic subplots rarely work in fantasy / action-adventure narratives)

in other words they have the dynamic that boy best friends have in this genre and that’s why it works

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not to get emotional or anything but the way that percy, annabeth, and grover's lives are literally all connected by the end of tlo....im sobbing.

obviously we have percy's life connected to grover's through the empathy link. if percy dies, grover dies, and vice versa.

but then we also have percy's achilles spot which connects him to annabeth, and I have to wonder....if the one thing that kept percy mortal happened to die, what would happen to percy? would he also die? would he become vulnerable again? (I need answers.)

and then, something I completely forgot about until this morning, annabeth swore on the styx to protect percy...

which means that, if percy dies, so does annabeth because her life is now connected to his through this promise on the styx.

going with my theory that percy would die if annabeth did because of his mortal spot, if any one of these three dies, so do the other two.

if grover dies, percy dies because of the empathy link, and annabeth dies because of her promise on the styx. if percy dies, grover dies because of the empathy link and annabeth does, again, because of her promise. if annabeth dies, percy dies because she's his tether and there's no longer anything keeping him mortal, and then grover would die because of the empathy link.

in conclusion, im screaming.

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The moment you’ve been waiting for… Percy Jackson with Tattoos! The first in my PJO Tattoo series 🌊  I gave Percy a bunch of stupid ones, because as much as I liked the pretty ones I also feel like he would impulsively get some stick and pokes. He has the 3 pearls, Blackjack, his SPQR tattoo, his sword and pen, a Trident, and an eye for his brother Tyson. He also has the Empire State Building, and Ichor dripping from his Achilles spot. He has the beads from his necklace, “bob says hello” amongst the stars, and a sand dollar with his family’s names. The golden thread represents the thread of life controlled by the fates, and I imagine when the demigods die the tattoo of the thread will be cut! For Annabeth, he has the fall into Tartarus, “wisegirl”, the NY from her cap, and a quote that I felt was perfect for them. Hope you guys like this one, who do you want to see next?

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