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Striving for Better

@feeling-true-lou

Hey! The names Lou! I’m 22! I hope to find and share some good stuff! Also, sometimes I write poetry | he/they/she

A Life Is Inherently Sisyphean, What The Hell Is The Point moodboard

Prozac Nation, Elizabeth Wurtzel / We Need To Talk About Kevin, Lionel Shriver / Killing Eve / Before You Snap, Yonderboi (sampled from The Witches of Eastwick) / We Need To Talk About Kevin, Lionel Shriver / The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath

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Part 2

We Need To Talk About Kevin, Lionel Shriver / 7 O’Clock, Penelope Scott / tweet / The Myth of Sisyphus, Albert Camus / tumblr post
Kevin Can Fuck Himself 
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I’m thrilled to tell you all, the LOVE LAUGH LICH audiobook comes out today!! I’m utterly blown away by Rachel Leblang’s performance. Go give it a listen, you can find it on audiobooks.com.

Some people have monsters for a boss, but not everyone has an undead Necromancer Lord at the office. Lily has been the Lich’s secretary ever since his evilness took over the company. She loves her job, but she’s got some questions about her boss. Like what’s under that cloak of ever-billowing. Her wondering intensifies when one day the Lich needs something from her that isn’t just scheduling appointments– but a shiver. He needs it for a spell, but it feels like it crosses a line from their usual workplace banter. After her contributions to his dark rituals become more than OSHA compliant, she starts to contemplate whether the Lich Lord returns her feelings, or still only sees her as his secretary. Lily may have given him her body, but he never asked for her heart.

Love, Laugh, Lich is a M/F office monster romance with light comedic elements, roughly 17k words. Content notes can be found at kate-prior.com 💀💖

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yeah i'll take another stupid dumb iced coffee please. yes another bandaid on the gaping wound that is my stupid dumb life. no sugar. thank you so much

remember, it's imperative to turn your aesthetic preferences into moral ones. you can't just dislike neutral colors, or glass-and-steel skyscrapers, or flat design, they have to be symbols of neoliberal capitalism in decay. it's incredibly important that you make sure everybody knows that the only reason anyone could like the things you don't like is that they're an empty shell of a person.

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that moby dick post about "if i don't end this story, then you are still alive in some way, you aren't truly dead" hits the core of what lcb ishmael's trauma is imo. we've yet to see her chapter, of course, but we know she's been job-hopping before joining limbus co. to find survivors of her "hellish voyage." she's described by the game's text as "obsessive-compulsive" bc she will not - or perhaps cannot - let go of something without understanding it. and what is trauma but a wound? wounds can be healed. wounds can be examined and fixed, surely. they can be dissected and understood. there must be some meaning to what she's experienced. there must be a conclusion, an aftermath, a moral or a lesson, some form of catharsis to be had. someone must still be alive to help her make sense of what she's seen. she must find them. the world must make sense again.

"that bastard" must still be alive because if they aren't - what does ishmael have? how can she heal this festering wound she's been left with?

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it was a dear friend's coffin that saved ishmael in the original book. but she isn't assigned the theme of "coffin" or "death." ishmael is a hearse: a vehicle designed to bring those dead to their final resting place. a woman who has no choice but to carry the memories of the deceased with her, directionless, uncertain of her final destination. unable to face the truth of her being truly, utterly lost, and turning to the lie of "they are still alive"

this shit was more tantalizing than any studio ghibly foods

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it’s the way spongegar and patar were so fucking hungry for it, drooling everywhere just going fucking nuts for these things

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literally, like ur allowed to not want annoying little insects in ur house if they're disrupting ur quality of life, like if you had like. an ant problem you wouldn't just let them be in ur house lol

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right literally the whole purpose of them as a creature is to let u know there's standing water/a drainage issue. and like idc what other people do w them in their own spaces but like it's genuinely infuriating to get like weirdly moral about it like killing anything ever is the worst thing someone could possibly do

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and these ppl aren't the only ones who've read allowables by nikki giovanni, i keep tarantulas, it's not like i haven't thought hard and critically about what we consider ok to kill. i think the whole every life has value thing be mindful be compassionate thing is very noble or whatever but you can't expect everyone to also live by that standard and extend the same courtesy across the board, especially when it comes to actual household pests, and consider that mindless killing -_-

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I Kissed a Girl being knocked off #1 on the Hot 100 by Disturbia which was knocked off by Live Your Life which was knocked off by So What which was knocked off by Womanizer which was knocked off by Single Ladies which was knocked off by Just Dance which was knocked off by My Life Would Suck Without You which was knocked off by Right Round which was knocked off by Poker Face is an insane run of HITS. We really said the Global Recession needs the cuntiest soundtrack.