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I love finding out new things about Saint Robin Williams

[ID: A Variety article posted on March 27, 2023 that's titled:

"Nathan Lane: Robin Williams "Protected Me" From Coming Out As Gay on "Oprah" in 1996 Because "He Was A Saint"

The article's image is from The Birdcage (1996) and shows Robin Williams and Nathan Lane as characters Armand Goldman and Albert from the movie, sitting beside each other on a bench.

The excerpt of the article reads:

I don't think Oprah was trying to out me, but I said to Robin beforehand, 'I'm not prepared. I'm so scared of going out there and talking to Oprah. I'm not prepared to discuss that I'm gay on national television. I'm not ready,"" Lane said. "He said, 'Oh, it's alright, don't worry about - we don't have to talk about it. We won't talk about it.""

Winfrey did end up asking questions that left the door open for Lane to come out. "She was like, 'How come you're so good at that girlie stuff? Are you worried about being typecast?"" the actor remembered.

According to Lane, Williams "sort of swoops in and diverts Oprah, goes off on a tangent and protects me because he was a saint." Lane called Williams a "beautiful, sensitive soul."

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#i think people forget sometimes that being a good ally #sometimes means guarding the closet door [via @anais-ninja-bitch]

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Tangential Tuesday

Or something like that.

Inspired by @alexanderlightweight's "Writing Wednesday" and my magpie brain being even more dysfunctional than usual of late, I am opening up my askbox for requests! With the usual caveat that whatever I come up with may bear very little resemblance to whatever you thought you had in mind ;)

I am accepting:

  • Writing Prompts! (You may cruise my #prompt requests tag for ideas if you'd like, just be sure to tell me which meme if applicable.) If you're a relatively recent follower/lurker my writing tag is #jilly writes and my ao3 is here.
  • Omegaverse Prompts for @knotinmyname's Anti-AI event June 12-16
  • Lore/worldbuilding questions/headcanons
  • Podfic requests (Fic under 2.5k words only please, as I am too rusty to figure out multiple chapters at this point.) My fic or anyone else's is fair game; if the author doesn't have a blanket permission statement I'll ask them discreetly before I record anything, and if I can't get permission I'll let you know.

Primary Fandoms:

  • Shadowhunters (TV): I tend to write Malec, and I probably won't write either Alec or Magnus with someone else, but I enjoy the entire extended cast so feel free to go wild.
  • BioWare: Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Jade Empire

I have however written the occasional meta & fic or podficced everything from Heyer Regency Novels to Stranger Things to Firefly/Serenity to Ladyhawke to Code Realize to Choice of Romance to SDV to 7kpp... so if you've got an idea for something else, feel free to ask! Especially if you've ever seen my reblog it. If I can't come up with anything I'll let you know.

And I'll try and make a slightly more coherent post next week, but if I wait for that I'll never start :D

i keep forgetting the sky does that

melts?

time-lapse photography needs to stop teaching me things my psyche is a frail and stuttering sandcastle unwoven by the tides

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that’s the view as the sun pulls us through space like this

PLEASE STOP TEACHING ME THINGS I IMPLORE YOU

es a Nap meg ugy megy korbe a Tejut kozeppontja korul, mint korhintan a pacik

my translation app did a thing

Hi, Hungarian here. They’re saying “and the Sun is going around the center of the Milky way like the horsies on the merry-go-round”

this is DELIGHTFUL information I thank you

While replaying Mass Effect, I realized the SR-1 had no bathrooms anywhere in-game. Or crew quarters, or a kitchen.

I promptly got a bee in my bonnet and traced all the maps of the SR-1 from ingame screenshots and overlaid them onto a Normandy SR-1 silhouette, only to discover THE PIECES DON’T FIT.

So I ‘fixed’ it. Disclaimer: I tried to take into account things like the ship’s depth and necessary wiring, but I am not an engineer, just an angy nerd.

Please feel free to use/refer to this. I’d love credit if you repost it or share it with people elsewhere, as I spent far too much of my life hurting my wrist by doing this.

p.s. in the ‘fixed’ version of the crew quarters, the beds are the pull-out wall beds.

YES, I love this! It makes me very happy to see someone else who’s brain goes “WAIT, where’s their damn gym?”

I’ve reworked the Alliance/ME3 version of the SR2, but hadn’t even looked at the SR1.

Also, very nice info design. I love the simplicity of your rendering, and how clear it makes alignment between decks (or lack thereof, in original). My SR2 plans are much more of a mess — a detailed mess! But a mess all the same — I might take some inspiration from you for a more finished version. Already using wall lines color-coded by deck but a solid fill would make it easier to see where the ‘open below’ areas are.

Shadowhunters prompt! Where the A/B/O thing means Magnus’s attempts to get Alec’s attention are really out there. Alec is charmed but baffled

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so uh. I wasn't quite sure where to go with that, because Magnus & Alec's ability to try and communicate at dramatic cross-purposes is Very Them™️, but I usually think the a/b/o thing would make it easier what with pheromones and more defined gender/courting rituals? But then again it's not like Nephilim would have any idea how anyone else does things, and Magnus would be rather paranoid about crossing any lines?
Yeah. That totally works. Even if I failed to explain any of that IN THE FIC, hopefully baffled Alec is still entertaining? LMK if you want more, there's a whole lot more explanation in my head so I'm sure I can come up with something. 😅😅😅

That was Magnus.

In the Institute.

In a suit with a vest but no shirt and those boots and his hair, and Alec suddenly realized he was still standing with his arm raised from opening a door even though the door had shut behind him.

He was alone with Magnus in the Institute foyer and he was gorgeous and he smelled perfect, as warm and comforting as the incense that burned in the chapel without any of the cold tang of adamas-laced stone beneath it that always made Alec's spine straighten and nose wrinkle because that smell meant work.

Alec finally remembered to let his hands drop to his sides, and then realized Magnus had said something, and he was almost smiling and he was...

Holding out a bouquet of flowers?

Alec blinked.

"What."

He didn't manage to make it sound like a question, and he almost winced as Magnus' expression tightened, and he leaned back and he was further away and the flowers were gone, and Alec almost whimpered in disappointment.

"My apologies, of course."

And then somehow Magnus was bowing and he was even further away with a flourish of his hands and a twirl of his coat and the click of his boot-heels on the stone floor and Alec tried to reach out a hand because he still couldn't figure out what Magnus had said, he'd been too distracted by how pretty he was and how nice the flowers were but then he was alone by himself in the Institute with his hand hanging in front of him.

Again.

What.

Why.

Alec sighed, and stared up at the ceiling, as if that would give him the answer, would explain how his why are you giving me flowers when we haven't even rescheduled our date yet and I haven't gotten you anything? somehow come out as why would you think I'd like flowers despite the fact that Alec adored flowers and would love to tell Magnus that.

If he could just remember how to talk when Magnus showed up?

He'd managed to say yes when Magnus asked him out for drinks!

Only then he'd had to chase Clary and apparently Magnus thought that meant something other than literally having to chase Clary because she didn't have the sense God gave sheep.

Izzy or Jace were going to manufacture a disaster and call Magnus to clean it up just to find out what was going on between them, and Alec hated to think how much of a catastrophe they'd manage on purpose, considering the chaos they pulled off all the time mostly by accident.

He hated even more that he was half-tempted to create a disaster himself so Magnus would stop thinking he'd done something wrong and disappearing to regroup before Alec's brain could reboot after seeing him.

How the fuck was one person that attractive, it should be impossible.

Maybe he could write a letter and throw it at Magnus the next time he showed up?

He heard the door he'd come through open, and the stutter of boots as someone had to shift to avoid him where he was still standing by himself right in front of the door.

Alec sighed again. "Yes, Yoshino?"

"I was uh." Yoshino somehow still looked perfectly composed and reasonably elegant in her leathers even as she shrugged and side-stepped to get around him. "Just going out for coffee. Want anything?"

Alec shook his head. "No, thank you."

"You... all right sir?"

Alec lifted his brows at her.

"You've got that smoky cedar smell thing going on, and that usually means you're about to do something on purpose that terrifies the trainees more than their own reckless stupidity, and I just want to know if I should get some extra bold beans to stash in the kitchen for the rest of us so we can keep up."

Alec snorted and shook his head again. "I promise not to scare the trainees."

Yoshino's nose wrinkled as she stared at him. "Two bags then, got it."

He blinked, and she turned and left, and he allowed himself a grin as the door swung closed behind her. That was probably a good idea, actually. He could use the kick to help him figure out a new approach.

it seems like everyone i follow on tumblr is posting copious amounts of dragon age, and i feel it is pertinent to say that i’ve seen a lot of things: an ostensibly traitorous egg person, a horrific bull human hybrid, romantic british redcoat dances, pirates, magic, violence, soft porn of every orientation combination, sad white haired anime elves…yes, i’ve seen it all. what have i not seen? even one single dragon.

Anonymous asked:

Omegaverse with Shepard/Joker?

So this turned into something more like meta or the old @headcanonwednesday In-Universe Ramblings or what I tend to tag as a not!fic, but I hope it still fills the prompt reasonably well. Or is at least entertaining? 😅 (Of course, now I have to figure out how to post it. And now I have a meta/not!fic collection on ao3 apparently.)

Every military in earth's recorded history has always made pheromone blockers mandatory while on active duty. Close living quarters and emotional conditions followed by separation as people were transferred or went home or died... it was that or half their soldiers never would go home and settle back into 'polite' society, too hooked on the heightened pheromones of such a tightly knit group to accept the looser connections more common in civilian life.

Going into space made a whole range of hormone and pheromone blockers even more common, what with recycled air and water that either tasted a bit like everyone on board or too much like the chemicals used to sanitize it.

And then Humanity made first contact. Dextro-pheromones were undetectable to levo species (and vice-versa) which added to how poorly Turian to Human communication began... but the Citadel was a revelation.

Almost an apocalyptic one.

I think a corollary to this is I don't want my fandom experiences to be unique, I want them to be sincere

That's why I enjoy reading the same tropes over and over again. Those authors are writing those stories from a genuine love of both the tropes and the characters.

It's why I enjoy 17 gif sets about the same 3-second interaction on screen. Each one of those sets was pulled and recoloured and captioned and adjusted because each one of those gif makers wanted to capture that moment and celebrate it.

It's why every "I'm glad you enjoyed it" reply makes me smile when I get one on a comment I left. Because I know replying to comments is hard and kind of awkward, but I also know that the author really *is* glad and I'm happy that I could let them know I enjoyed their work.

I love things that are new, sure. But I also love things that have been done a million times already because I know the person doing it loves that thing too. I love the love they're showing. I love the genuine joy and celebration and community it fills me with.

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There are a lot of great educators out there, but too many people just to critique without actually considering why it's like that.

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Thus why crossbows are better in film

They're just as flashy as bows

they're simple and just as bad ass.

Then again, I'm not qualified to speak on how accurate bows and crossbows are, but if you're going to use one in an action movie, then I'd say crossbow definitely 100%.

there's a reason crossbows were invented and popularized and it's that they're superior to a bow in most ways as a martial weapon. they allow increased draw weight for better stopping power, and they may be drawn in advance and fired when ready which allows more accurate aiming and a quicker response time once a target is spotted. the main disadvantage is that they're heavy and have a lot of complex moving parts. they're also not appropriate for all settings because they're a much more modern invention than bows are.

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...I don't usually reply to things like this, but I just wanted to point out that the reason that crossbows were popularised was not because they were superior weapons. In skilled hands, bows continued to dominate crossbows in battle long after they began to coexist (and probably still would, imo).

The increased draw weight isn't as impressive as it looks because the draw /length/ is a lot less (which is why pistol crossbows are much less powerful than rifle crossbows of the same weight). And that slight edge on the first shot is rendered more or less irrelevant when the reload time on heavy crossbows was best measured in minutes, while archers put out a minimum of 1 arrow per 5 seconds (especially in open warfare, which is what most battles were).

The real reason why crossbows (and initially guns) replaced bows was that it takes so much less time to get someone good enough with one. You could raise an army of crossbowmen in a couple of months, but archers needed to be embedded in your culture and trained from childhood.

I'm not trying to undersell crossbows, because that is a HUGE tactical advantage, but it's just not the case that they were instantly superior weapons!

A little sketch comic about how bisexuality is totally cool and good and not bad.

The format is cliché!  I know.  But it makes it easy to talk about things I want to talk about.  Thanks for reading!

(I shouldn’t have to say this, but since a lot of people wanted to educate me on twitter: The words listed in panel seven [yes even in the parentheticals!] are just examples of how often acceptable language around gender and sexuality changes.  They are not lists of synonymous words, and many of them are now considered unacceptable.  That’s why they’re on the list. That’s what the list IS. I know.)