VRAINS Ep 38 is just Revolver thinking about him hardly being in love with Playmaker and how it mostly killed most of his family.

Wow. The homoerotic subtext. Haha. Hahaha. HAHAHAHAHA-- REVOLVER MENTIONED HIS OBSESSION WITH PLAYMAKER 8 TIMES. 8 TIMES! I HAVE NEVER SEEN A CHARACTER MENTIONING THEIR OBSESSION 8 TIMES IN ONE EPISODE.