etoiles-filantesx

ok so just recently me and the first guy I ever had a more legitimate relationship with became friends again and are actually hanging out and stuff and I'm honestly so happy. I totally broke his heart and it was awful for a while and I don't think that I could ever see myself going back but I'm so happy he's in my life like he just gets me. It's weird to say but he's the one person I can talk to about literally anything. He's always there for me and we never get bored of each other. but I just found out he's leaving in September and now I'm sad and that's weird. We kinda have this love hate relationship going on because sometimes he's a total jerk and I'm a heartless bitch but in the end no matter what we always start back again. I just wanted to document this lol

"I loved you and you broke my heart" "Fuck you" drunk texts from the first guy I've ever left broken hearted

I feel so horrible omg there is a boy who wants to be with me so badly and his personality is honestly perfect like we have tons in common and seem to get along very well and he's super into me like it's almost crazy but the thing is my best friend used to like him and she's really sensitive so idk if I should go for it.. and also as bad as it sounds I'm also not sure because he's a year younger and he's not really attractive to me and I would get made fun of and lose a chance with any of his (hot) friends. Does that make me stupid or..

Its a process And God, it's been hard But slowly I'm getting over you Or maybe I should just say moving on Because to get over you would be impossible because sometimes I still miss you and sometimes I feel sad about everything But I'm definitely moving on Because for the first time in a long time when I went out my first thought wasn't that maybe I would see you In fact, you never crossed my mind But then I get informed that you were there You were within walking distance of me And my heart sunk and it stayed like that until I left Because I couldn't stop thinking what I would do if I saw you Would I look away and walk by as if I never saw you Would I smile and continue on my way or Would you come up to me and hug me tightly and tell me you missed me Because if you did that I honestly don't know what I would do I'd like to think that I'm strong enough to say okay and move on from that But deep down I know I would melt and I know that I told you you never have a chance with me, but honestly I would probably let you do whatever you wanted to me just so I could feel what it feels like to have your hands on my body and your whispers in my ear again

oh my god I need your touch

I'm scared to cut ties slowly but surely our connections are getting less But I can't risk cutting you out completely Because you were the okay person to ever make me feel To make me feel like there was something bigger than all of this And honestly I don't want you back I don't want you at all You're awful I just want the pain to stop I miss the feelings you gave me not you

Last night you told me that you want me and that you always got what you wanted. I said that's funny because you won't ever have me and as hard as it was to say the exact opposite of what I really want it felt good. I felt powerful.

FUCK U I SHOULDNT HAVE SAID THAT NKW U THINK I WANT U AGAIN AND I DO BUT ITS NOT ALLOWED STFU

So many other boys talking to me but just want u baby

"You're so pretty oh my" "Honestly oh my god"

"You just get me going okay god"

maybe you never get over someone, you just learn to live without them