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I just put together that Crowley, despite his whining, fully accepts the idea of "our car," which fundamentally transforms the Bentley.

That's why Shax then has to play Hitchhiker instead of just popping in like she had previously - now that it's the Earthly property of an angel as well as a demon, she needs an invite.

I have always said this ever since I watched OFMD for the first time but I'll say it again:

I personally don't believe Ed was being his true self when he went through the "Why are we even pirates" phase. Instead, I have reasons to believe he was going through a manic phase after a depressive episode, floundering for an identity that would help him feel less broken, but missing the mark in the process.

As someone who has gone through extremely painful breakups and who struggles with a sense of identity due to my abandonment issues, I read that moment as a clear sign that Ed is overcompensating for what he feels is a shortcoming in his personality, and he thinks that shortcoming is the alleged "cause" for why Stede left him.

In that scene, Ed seems to understand that he is not the violent and ruthless entity that people make him out to be, but he's also unable to fully grasp the extent to which he is soft and vulnerable, thus pushing things to an artificial extreme.

I think Izzy's reaction is significant in this situation because he overcorrects in the exact opposite direction. In that moment Izzy may sense that Ed is not acting like "himself", but he fails to recognize in what way. Because of this misunderstanding, he pushes things too far toward the other extreme. Izzy could be partially correct in assuming Edward isn't being his genuine self, but he makes the mistake to assume that if Ed isn't this absolute softy, then he MUST be the complete opposite. Izzy is your typical black-and-white thinker, and so the way he jumps to assumptions is both predictable and tragic.

After the argument with Izzy, Ed comes to the partial realization that he has gone too far with his soft persona. However, in doing so, he unfortunately overcorrects again, this time going "Kraken mode", and once again missing the mark when it comes to finding his true self. He is like a person who has lost control of his car, swerving from one curb the other instead of finding stability somewhere in the middle.

I genuinely believe that the "true Ed" is somewhere in between those two extremes, but he hasn't yet found the inner peace to truly embrace that side.

Those of us who struggle with identity often go through these periods of attempting to find the self by adopting extreme sides of our personality, especially when we are in distress. This can be exasperated when the people around us show us in one way or another that they don't accept who we are. In those moments of desperate self exploration, we scramble to find an identity that can ground us and help us gain acceptance and approval from those around us. People like this tend to jump to conclusions and assume they have found their true identity, but it's rarely the case, especially when the driving force is external and not internal.

I believe the only way Ed can find his true self is if he separates himself from external factors and traumas, which is, of course, not easy in the environment he's currently in. If he continues to rely on the reactions and perceptions of others to define himself, he will never be able to truly heal. Stede can't heal him, Izzy can't heal him, the external world can't heal him. Only Ed can save Ed.

I'm curious to see how Season 2 explores these concepts.

one thing i will always eat the fuck up and never get sick of is steven universe style fusion aus where two or more characters are fused together to create a character that's both a combination of them and an entirely new person

Yo! It’s Grubby Jesus! (Jonathan Sims, head archivist of the Magnus Institute, London)

[ID: Digitally painted Magnus Archives fanart in the style of an old illuminated illustration. Jon is a thin brown man with thick, long wavy hair wearing dark robes. He stands in profile and holds a tape recorder to his chest while turning to look behind him. He has a stylized white third eye on his forehead, and a gold circle backs his head. End ID]

I would be willing to watch a Galaxy Quest style movie of literally anything.

Hayden Christensen gets abducted by the Jedi because they need the Chosen One’s help despite the warnings. Ewan is waiting for it to be a prank, Natalie Portman has some serious questions for Lucas. 

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart get bitten by vampires, hilarity ensues. 

Sarah Michelle Gellar, Jensen Ackles, and Henry Cavill have to fight monsters and keep the press from finding out. 

Emilia Clarke falls through a portal and is now riding dragons and doing a damn good job of it. 

this is part 1 [part 2] Happy TMAnniversary haha the song is  A Complete List of Fears Ages 5-28 (Aprox) by The Yellow Dress I really love this podcast so so much. I just finished it like a month ago and it still lives in my brain so i just had to do a little tribute

Started watching Star Trek TOS a while ago and I just gotta note it's an absolute crime we never get to see Jim just hang out with the girls platonicly. He needs to watch a musical with Uhura or learn to knit with Amanda or something, cause the bestie energy radiating off this man is overwhelming and for what!!

I love how this entire fandom got so used to Con O'Neill reposting the most unhinged fanart every two minutes that no one really pays attention to it anymore. I remember when he reposted some sus tentacle style fanart on twitter and deleted it and everyone lost their minds but yesterday he reposted fanart of izzy in a harness, but no one bats an eye that's just good ol' Con now :) i love it

i find it interesting in TOS how happiness or contentment is associated with placidity and stasis, the most prominent examples being “the apple” and “this side of paradise”. in both, this idea of utopia, or a simpler more peaceful society is critiqued for its lack of ambition, its lack of advancement but with the world the way it is i do have to wonder about the value of advancement in and of itself as a goal. 

I love how this entire fandom got so used to Con O'Neill reposting the most unhinged fanart every two minutes that no one really pays attention to it anymore. I remember when he reposted some sus tentacle style fanart on twitter and deleted it and everyone lost their minds but yesterday he reposted fanart of izzy in a harness, but no one bats an eye that's just good ol' Con now :) i love it