i try to mostly just broadcast the words of more informed people about recent atrocities, but ultimately this is my blog, so i’m going to talk a about it a bit. there’s no need to have reblogs on, since it’s not particularly useful.
i recently spoke with some people irl about the genocide israel’s been enacting against palestinians. it’s weird crying in public, seeing the same rage reflected in others, and feeling no relief from it. speaking candidly with others about current issues usually feels at least somewhat cathartic, especially when i barely know those people. it’s like, okay, so i&’ not insane. but the present atrocities are so horrible and just… stupid that there is only the monotonous and inescapable feeling of “it’s senseless. it’s senseless. it’s senseless.”
when i was growing up, i was taught by some adults that zionism and climate catastrophe were god’s grand vision for the future. like, these disasters are good, actually, because the world is supposed to end like this! (: added on top of typical 2000s islamophobic warmongering, a lot of adults i grew up around seemed to worship senseless murder in pursuit of the death of humanity, the destruction of the world more broadly, and the destruction of palestine more specifically.
i know there are colonialist and capitalist and such incentives for the US’s support of Israel, sure. but i also have experience to know that there are end-times deathcult reasons behind some americans’ support of the destruction of a people they don’t know the first thing about in a place they will never see. just because of this completely useless purely symbolic significance based on a reading of the bible that dates back like 200 years at most, or based on foolishly literal and misinformed contemporary interpretations of extremely old symbolic political commentary about roman emperors, or based on a fucking series of fictional novels published in the 90s that are somehow taken as prophecy. it’s just stupid. it’s stupid and shameful.
thinking on crying in front of people i barely knew a few days ago, i don’t know if i even managed to say anything actually coherent. i’ve found that when i cry to others about this i end up saying “it’s just so stupid” over and over and people think i’m talking about my own crying. but no like. i think crying is the only reasonable thing to do sometimes. when something is just so awful and crying is the only thing you can do right now in this moment to begin to grapple with the scope of that grief. that’s not stupid.
what’s stupid is treating the death of an entire people as a number on an end-times bingo card. it’s sickening. it’s senseless, senseless, senseless
i know that this is just a small facet of the whole………….. thing. it’s a really stupid facet though. it’s just ridiculous.
