Just Autistic Things...
Being excited about beige food and sitting alone in your room while watching your special interest on youtube for the 50th time this month...ngl I’m excited as heck for it!
Neurotypicals take drugs to experience everyday shit for neurodivergent people like “Bro I was so high I had to turn my tv down to taste my pizza” yeah that’s a Tuesday night for me
Oh! Aiden now see Aiden old rb is poof and now Aiden need make define.
Ok so
Level 1: low support need, can do most/all basic thing by self
Level 2: medium support need, can do some thing by self but maybe need help with basic thing or have hard basic thing
Level 3: high support need, not able do most/all basic thing by self or have many many hard basic thing
Person able be between level!
Here’s a small, pretty personal comic, about how growing up with undiagnosed autism has led to me struggling to share negative emotions with other people. (I think unfortunately many can relate to this)
Pay attention to things that usually pass you by unnoticed. Discover new sounds in songs you like and new meanings in your favorite stories. And then go beyond. Listen to new songs. Read new stories. Fall in love with astronomy and then with painting. Start writing poems, songs, and love letters. The possibilities are endless and whatever you choose to do, just remember to never stop opening the doors of your existence because behind some of them you may actually find yourself.
One of the worst parts about being autistic is never knowing why. Not knowing why you don't get invited to things, not knowing why people bully you, not knowing why you can't make friends or get a date or connect with people. There's no cheat sheet or exit survey or easy fix. It's just lonely and isolating.
Being autistic is when
Either, I listen to and comprehend what you’re saying.
Or, I make eye-contact and control my facial expression.
Pick. One.
I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.
-Sylvia Plath
one day you think: I want to die. and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book. and I want to die turns day by day into want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun, I want a cleaner kitchen, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else. I want to live.
- via duckbunny
2020knives
autism thing where i have to watch youtubers i generally agree with react to every drama or apology ever (multiple sources) because someone can make the worst, most manipulative and dishonest apology video, and i will watch it and go "yeah okay :3"
i just cannot detect it like at all. i will not notice anything is wrong. & then the youtuber reacting is like "look how awful that was look at all of these bad things they did in it" and every time i'm like holy shit man you're so right actually i did not see
have to be super careful about where i get my news bc i know i'm so easily influenced bc i miss out on this stuff. & i'm tired of ppl talking down on people who don't pick up on this on their own. it's not my fault. i try to educate myself by watching other ppl talk about it but if i make a mistake please just educate me don't assume i'm evil?
Autistic school trauma is:
- knowing you’re disliked, but not being able to know why
- consistently being called out for your stims because they’re “disruptive” or “annoying”
- trying to simply mesh in with others to avoid getting targeted
- suppressing your anger to the point that you feel it’s not justified
- never being able to form connections no matter how hard you try, and thinking it’s your fault
- being able to form connections but never being able to be true to yourself or set boundaries since you’re so used to being disrespected
- witnessing ableism from classmates but not doing anything about it because they’ll just invalidate you
- never feeling like your opinions can be validated because you’re “weird”
- being outcasted by your classmates constantly
- having classmates either let you know outright or subtly that you’re disliked
- eventually believing that you deserve to be disliked
- suffering from chronic low self esteem that affects your grades, your ability to function, and even your ideas of love
- frequently getting into toxic/codependent friendships
- having teachers criticize you constantly for your symptoms
- living from a complex of never being good enough
- feeling like you have to reach a neurotypical standard on a daily basis and if you don’t, you’re incompetent
if you’re feeling any of these things because of school, autistic or not, know that what you are experiencing is trauma, and that your trauma is valid. You don’t deserve to be in a school environment where you are consistently criticized or made to feel like you don’t belong nor can’t be good enough. You deserve an environment that makes you feel safe enough to be neurodivergent, to be yourself. You deserve to feel loved, to feel cared for, exactly as you are, with no strings attached.
Being semi verbal feels like my first language isn't English and I can barely speck it and form together sentences with mouth words (and text if overwhelmed or burned out enough) , plus misunderstanding people and struggling to understand social cues and etc its like I'm a foreigner in a foreign country (or maybe even someone from a different dimension)
happy disability pride month to those with conditions no one talks about, online or in general:
multiple sclerosis (me lol)
marfans
cerebral palsy
bells palsy
hidradenitis suppurativa
cauda equina syndrome
mixed connective tissue disorder
hyperadrenergic pots
non hypermobile eds types
stickler syndrome
mitochondrial disease
cystic fibrosis
sickle cell disease
myasthenia gravis
post-cholecystectomy syndrome
SWAN (syndromes without a name)
...just to name a few. i see you and you deserve awareness and understanding.
this list is non exhaustive, rb with other conditions you want to see represented!!
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This is the first time I've actually seen a positivity post mention my illness type! That's really cool.
I actually used my AAC in public today for the first time. I know this might not sound like much to some people, but when I have speaking issues and end up nonverbal or having a verbal communication issue (I don’t know what to call it without people getting mad at me) I normally just stop talking all together and isolate myself. This AAC really helped me so much today and I don’t feel so drained physically and mentally from work. I’m really happy so now I don’t have to go home and sleep the rest of my afternoon away, I can play a game or read!!
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Also, I don’t know what you’d call it that I have. I was nonverbal for well over 7 years and have on and off verbal issues where I can talk some days but most days I’m completely silent. Recently I’m having an episode that’s seeming to last about 4 days.
(TW FOR ABLEISM, MELTDOWNS, ETC.)
Supporting disabled people is more than just supporting us when you think its cute, easy, or beneficial for you.
If your support ends when you see an adult in public with a diaper bulge, you aren't supporting disabled people.
If your support ends when you see someone drooling, you aren't supporting disabled people.
If your support ends when someone has a violent meltdown in public, you aren't supporting disabled people.
If your support ends when someone needs help being fed, you aren't supporting disabled people.
Etc. Etc. Etc.
I know that you dont think its cute or aesthetically pleasing to try and calm me down and be understanding of me when I throw my communication device across the room and slam my head into the ground because someone laughed too loudly, I know that you think its embarrassing. I know you dont think it's all "uwu cute tism" when I can't shower for a week straight and spend the whole day crying, yelling, and biting myself, but if that makes you angry at me, you arent supporting disabled people.
What is your limit to supporting disabled people? What is your limit to being okay with the fact that I am NOT like your nondisabled friends?
Where does the support end and the disgust start? How long until we are "too disabled" for you?
/not at anyone specific
This blog is not participating in the Tumblr "Blackout"
Why? It's the start of Disability Pride month. Much of the systems in society are deliberately hostile to disabled folk, even the ones that are supposed to "help" them. Pride last month around the world held events that weren't accessible for disabled queers. These people are routinely cut out from society, assaulted, harrassed, and treated less than second class. People will physically move people in wheelchairs out of their way, cut them off, and stand in front of them as they try to move. They're shamed, insulted, laughed at, and mocked.
I know many are upset about Tumblrs recent changes, but if you truly want to help increase the accessibility of this site, especially for the sight or hearing impared or those who need to use third party applications to help them navigate the site, then a blackout isn't the way to do it. What you can do is add disability tags to your liked tags, or search up disability tags and see what disabled folk are saying they need from the site and either pay to blaze or come together as a community to amplify their voices and drown out ableists that constantly put them down. Disabled people face unique bigotry and deserve to have their needs blasted to the crowd and actions taken by abled folk to help them in the way they ask to be helped. One of the biggest issues I commonly see is abled folk assuming they know whats best for someone with a disability. If you're not disabled in the way someone else is, never assume you know what their needs are; always ask and listen closely.
This is a link to the proposed blackout and further reasons at the bottom why you shouldn't join this attempt, largely because Tumblr is set up in such a way that a blackout would do nothing but silence disabled voices:
Do not join the blackout. Go support disabled folk instead. Sit down and listen to them. They've a lot to be angry about, and it's damn time people listened.
I am once again begging several companies and important services (hospitals, GPs, etc.) to allow forms of contact other than verbally calling. Even with special numbers for that kind of thing, oftentimes the people running these services will still call back ignoring issues such as deafness or mutism, and then act as though you were in the wrong for lack of response - even if informing them of your condition beforehand.
I was fully mute for a few years, and the amount of times medical professionals ignored this and tried to call me for verbal discussions, or didn't provide another method of contact, was abysmal. They even demanded verbal calling by phone to be let into the building. So many services need to do better about this, and so do several companies. Not everyone can talk (even if they can hear), and not everyone can hear (even if they can talk). I am begging these services to do better.
When you're nervous to use aac even though you need it because you don't want to "annoy " anyone or make things "harder" for them