Yesterday I realised that I’m not a kid anymore after going to the doctors alone, without my mom by my side. Growing up is scary. But it’s a part of the life circle I guess. Live then die.

There are good days and bad days. You just have to hold on and not give up.

Winter is slowly going away.

I’m back. And I’ll be posting more about my depression and schizophrenia journey

Nobody should be alone if they’re going through a rough time. Lonelyness and depression can lead to horrible results. I want to help everyone who is going through a hard time. Don’t be afraid to text me. Please don’t be quiet .

I’m sorry for not uploading for a couple days. I was having a hard time, but i’m back now.

I still miss him. Even when he’s not in my life anymore. Of course i wish he would come back. But i know that he’s happy now. And that’s all i want. Him to be happy.

I’ll just suffer quietly alone..

February 6th,2018

At the age 16, I tried to commit suicide. Of course nobody saw the pain that I felt until they found out I tried to do such a thing. They called me selfish whilst I was dead inside. I couldn’t care less so I just distant myself from everyone. Going through it alone. Nobody should be alone. Thats when They appeared. I was always a kid with friends in the head but this time they were different. They were mean, rude, horrible, scary. They keep me company. In my darkest hour they hug the corners of my mind and make me want to die again. I did seek medical help, they said it’s going to be okay. But will it?

Mental illness is not a joke.

It’s time to die.

And then i realize that my nigtmares are way better than the life i have when i wake up.

The only mushrooms that don’t make you hallucinate.

The rain is what kills me and makes me live at the same time.