AM I LIVING OR JUST WASTING TIME

I can’t wait to be in a healthy relationship with someone I care a lot about

if i sigh loudly enough will all of my problems go away 

It’s like a fucking episode of The O.C. in here!

Love love.

Of course she is 

sometimes i think i was born backwards. you know, come out my mum the wrong way. i hear words go past me backwards. the people i should love, i hate. and the people i hate…

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A lot of people either hate Effy or just romanticize the hell out of her, but like. The thing about her is that she never had to face real emotion until Tony’s accident. She could hide away in her silent, mysterious facade and party away anything that was stuck under the surface. The accident forced her to open up for her brother’s sake. She tried to double back and hide everything away again in her usual games once he left for college and didn’t need her anymore, hence the general shenanigans and Cook. But then Freddie forced her to feel something again and she completely lost it. Once he’s gone, she completely shuts back up again in order to try and maintain a regular life and joins in on the adult games this time, and that’s why she completely avoids Naomi and her situation until it’s too late.

Effy isn’t heartless. She’s too observant for her own good and feels emotions stronger than anybody and has no idea how to deal with that. So she just doesn’t. She kills it with whatever she can. Even if that means destructive impulses. Even if that means forgetting. Because as much as she loves to lose control, she’s terrified of losing emotional control.

“Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before. Try and keep that feeling, because, if it goes, you’ll never get it back.”

Skins (2007-2013)