I’ve Been Away

Greetings everyone.

I know I have been away for quite some time, but have returned. 

My boyfriend broke up with me a month ago and I’ve mentally been put in an odd place...so I’ve been trying to get myself back together. It’s been very hot here & I’ve been so exhausted with thinking...it’s such an awful thing to do...I feel everything or I feel nothing at all...

Facts About Me

Hey everyone!

I know many probably won’t read or even bother to worry about this, but I’m thinking I should at least share some things about myself (in case anyone is interested in what I’m doing with my life or how I’m doing in general).

1. I LOVE HORROR MOVIES or anything having to do with horror/gore

2. I want to go to school to become a mortician, though when I was younger, I wanted to become a Veterinarian.

3. I love to write! I mainly write poetry and want to get a book published once I am able to save up the money, since any publishing service is CRAZY expensive. 

4. I was adopted from Murmansk, Russia when I was 2 years old. My birthmother was an alcoholic and stopped taking care of me once I was born. The government got involved, removed me from her care and placed me in an orphanage to be adopted. My parents now are very loving and wonderful.

5. I was born with a hole in my heart and got open-heart surgery. I also have a disability called Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, but it doesn’t physically limit me, only mentally. I have depression, ADD, ADHD, along with anxiety as the sprinkles. 

6. I have 2 younger sisters & an older brother (all of which are also adopted when they were young). One sister is from Guatemala, the other is from where I live now (Wisconsin) and my brother is from South Korea. My parents are a biracial couple (mom is from Louisiana and dad is from Illinois). 

Weekend

Lord am I GLAD that this weekend is FINALLY OVER!

Work was hell the past two days (Friday & Saturday), but thankfully today helped me regain my motivation. 

1st Day of December!

Happy December everyone!

The final month of 2018 where you either choose to use to make memories or regrets. 

I am just finishing up a cup of coffee and a piece of toast. We have a staff meeting in a half hour, but hopefully today will be better than yesterday. 

Books

I just woke up and just realized that I haven’t finished my Christmas list!

Now, I am currently in the process of trying to find what books I want for Christmas. At my age, I’m surprised my parents even allow us to make our own lists and actually get us stuff instead of just giving us money to spend. 

Wednesday

Good afternoon!

I wanted to post and say that I am feeling better today. Much better than how I was yesterday. I got lots of sleep, even though I woke up with a sore neck. I know things aren’t going to be any easier soon, but I know that this decision was for the best. 

Hoping to get some new writing done tomorrow since I’ll have the day off and I’ve gotten some new ideas.  

Break-Up

I know I’m not super active on here and yes, it makes me feel bad sometimes, even though I don’t really have any friends on here or anything. 

Anyway, my boyfriend and I decided to break up last night after 8 months together, so you can say I’m not going through the best time lately. I’ve cried a lot last night and most of today. It wasn’t a bad breakup or anything like that--just that his mom doesn’t like me & we’ve rarely been able to see each other and hang out like we used to when we started dating. So, these past 3 months have made us both feel as if we aren’t even together, even when we are. We felt that perhaps this isn’t the right time for us to be together and decided it was best to break things off. 

I’m not trying to sound whiny or anything along those lines. I am simply updating everyone on what I’m currently dealing with, so you’ll understand if I am inactive or something. I’m not in a good head space and this is only the first day, so I have a long way to go in order to get through this. But I’ll just take it one day at a time and hopefully work will help take this off my mind for awhile. 

Thank you for listening to my useless rant, but I was trying to just reach out to everyone. 

Black Friday

I just got home from working a double-shift at work (11am-9:15pm).

It was pretty busy during lunch, then it was pretty much dead for a remainder of the night. Thankfully, everyone was able to help out and support each other. 

One of my coworkers who got there about 5pm was working for only two hours until he began complaining cause apparently he was supposed to be at a Thanksgiving dinner with his family (which he could’ve asked off for). He started giving everyone an attitude and being all pissy cause he didn’t want to be at work. Then a different coworker snapped at him, saying he had NO RIGHT to be complaining cause most of us have been working double-shifts today and have been there since early morning. 

Anyway, it was a decent day. At least it was better than how my Thanksgiving went. 

A Truth For Everyone

Here’s a truth I am willing to share with you all...

I don’t care much about how many followers I get, even though I know it’s nice having that feeling that people are watching you as you go through certain times in life. I am simply here to express myself...having my own space to share things and be open.

I am glad to have a space such as this, seeing other peoples posts, their thoughts on things. I may not be on here every single day, mainly cause I have begun to work 5 days a week at my new job and trying to get a decent routine going for myself. But I will always be here for anyone if they want or need someone to talk to or just want/need a new friend. 

I enjoy getting to know new people and making connections, so don’t be afraid to reach out to me whenever.