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Ellaria

@ellaria / ellaria.tumblr.com

I like beautiful things, plants, and tragic romance. Oh, and blood. | She/Her | 18+ | Bi

I refuse to lose my kindness. No matter how many times people try and use it against me or try and maliciously take advantage of it.

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You can’t deserve a person’s love. You’ll drive yourself crazy thinking like that. They either love you, or they don’t. That doesn’t mean you weren’t good enough for them to love you, because love isn’t something you earn by being good enough. It isn’t something that can be quantified or doled out. Don’t blame yourself for not being loved how you need to, just teach yourself how to look for love where love lives.

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This isn’t just about romantic love, or even skewed towards romantic love, although it does apply there too. One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to accept is that my mother simply wasn’t someone who was capable of loving me, and there is no version of me that I could have ever been that would have earned that love. But with acceptance came healing. I was able to love myself more instead of resenting myself for not being more than any one person could be.

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Are you listening? Even love for yourself isn’t earned. It is a kindness you give yourself.

bitches see a text and are like ‘ill reply when i have the social and emotional energy for it’ and then forget about it for a week....anyway i’m bitches

me trying to sound employable: i love effort.... and doing things. i love trying. working is the best. i love it when its hard, and bad