Just continuing to keep it real on my post-breakup journey, having sex with somebody new who was a total angel & solely focused & attentive the entire time on my pleasure after having a long cry & talk about being betrayed by my ex was SO healing. It was really cathartic being worshipped like that by somebody new & also their body being completely different from my ex’s and hot in different surprising ways was just this cool reminder that there are a zillion sexy people in the world who are good lovers in different ways. I waited the right amount of time & was really clear about my intentions with someone I trusted and it really paid off emotionally
Anonymous asked:
Tmi btw
You don't need to tell us you're having sex
I never respond to messages but this is my new favorite one of all time
On my days at work I’m exhausted from making bread and hanging with coworkers and on my days off work I’m exhausted from too much sex and hiking so basically this summer is going exactly how I dreamed it would
one must imagine sisyphus happy (little kid whose rock is just the weight of his bike which on nice summer days he pushes up the steep hill just so he can ride down it again and again and until the sun goes down and one or two or three more times after that)
Queen of throwing t shirts in the dryer then getting pissed that they’re not baggy anymore
“If I’m sincere today, what does it matter if I regret it tomorrow?”
— José Saramago, Blindness
The never ending debate of whether it’s better for my health to get out and do shit outside on my day off or lay in the bath and nurse my sore muscles for about ten hours
im dj normal times and if you want solitude to be making have some silence
The owners of the bakery I’m working for are a couple that started off selling bread at the farmer’s market, then over the years got to the point where they own a working farm that they live on with their 2 young kids which also houses a bakery/cafe/stone oven where they bake pizzas in the summer. The dude did all of the engineering & building himself & their “house” is actually just a separate part of the building the bakery is in. Like they come into the office space to do their laundry. Their kids are always running around playing in the fields or bakery with someone behind them & the guy also has a band that plays locally. They’re like older millennial surfers and the entire operation is just so crazy to me. I know they’re having money issues and they are so busy all of the time that they keep track of each other by having shared hour-by-hour google calendars because the dude talked to me about it today so I’m not really envious but it blows my mind how people find ways to live on their terms sometimes
Proud as hell of myself for being assertive at work today when my kinda intense definitely-microdosing-to-be-productive master baker guy boss in his 40’s said something about my timing being behind. Like I still felt the sting & cried about it once I got home but when he made some critical comments I just stared him in the eyes & stayed level & told him I know I can do this while mentally being like “ok I’ve never dough mixed in my life & you expect me to be an expert after 3 days of training. Sure man.” He was really supportive after that & told me he knows I can do it but I just know I would’ve folded under the pressure and been like “shit guess I’m not good enough” if this had happened when I was younger. I’m kind of understating what transpired but you can imagine the intimidation factor of having an older male boss who is so renowned or whatever speak to you a small woman that way in a high pressure situation where you’re already giving it 150% and everyone else in the kitchen knows it
I can’t be around people who are actively using but I also don’t vibe with people who have always been sober because they don’t understand which basically means I vibe best with people who have been through addiction but then mellowed out which is a sort of lonely place to be in. I mean for friends anything is fine but for a life partner they’d have to understand the journey
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I remember walking with Stanley Kunitz and saying: “Stanley, something has me in its mouth and is chewing.” And he said, “Yes, and you must wait to see who you are when it’s done with you.”
— Marie Howe, from an interview conducted by Victoria Redel c. October 1997
Everytime I read Frankenstein, the same line makes me put the book down and stare at the wall. It’s my favorite line in the book; it has its own highlighter color in my annotations. The first time I read it, I literally detoured after my last class just to tell my lit teacher how much I liked the line because I couldn’t wait until second period the next day. Here’s the line:
“Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it.”
This is said by the creature. He wanted to live. He wanted to live life so badly even though he had had such a difficult one. He still loved the song of the birds and the smell of the flowers and the joy in the world even if he never got to truly experience that joy. I just. AHHHH.
He wanted to fight for a life he never got to live.
The creature grew up in a world were he wasn't loved. Yet, he loved the world.