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DynamicThesaurus

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A veritable mess of things I find interesting. Will tag all bug-related posts under #bug tw for blacklisting purposes. Please don't repost my art! Request box: Open.

i will never play his character any other way- i will always be terminally a wet dumpster cat of a man and always pick the options that make him look as pathetic as he truly is- (im only like 6 hours into th game but ive managed to pat the top of a mail box n tell it its doin a good job and run so hard into a door ive broken it, as well as picking up every bottle on the streets and run around with jus the ‘man-ass pants’ and gardening gloves) 

(also the last one was the ‘ramming into the door’ thing- and the lil one in the corner was my reaction to kim actually worrying abt us- i think that says more abt me than anything but let me live ok)

I'm playing through Dragon Age 2 again and I just can't get over how... idk how to say it exactly, but the way you feel, in every moment of this game, how much Varric loves Hawke. It feels entwined with everything, it breathes through every part of the narrative, it blooms diegetigally through the integration of story and gameplay, makes you a co-conspirator in that love in a way maybe only a video game could.

It's in the way I don't think this story is a defense of Hawke only -- or even primarily -- directed at Cassandra, but at Hawke themselves. Beneath everything else going on there's the quiet, utterly unshakable refutation of Hawke's worst fears: Did you think you mattered, Hawke? Did you think anything you ever did mattered? . . . You're a failure, and your family died knowing it. Rising through the story as Varric tells it there's a fiercely tender voice saying: Yes, you did matter. In tragedy or in triumph, for better or for worse, in love or in hate, you always mattered. The ultimate tragedy of Hawke is always right there in the open before the story even starts letting you in on telling it; they couldn't fix anything. They couldn't stop the downward spiral Kirkwall was set on -- the real truth is that no one person ever could. And yet the point of DA2 is that it matters that they tried, and it matters that there were people who loved and were loved along the way, however badly it all failed in the end. Hawke is the Bioware protagonist who succeeds the least, and they're the character who matters the most, to me. (This is also why the Absolution reveal did not shake me in the least haha, my love for Hawke has nothing at all to do with whether they succeeded or failed at anything.)

What Varric is saying, in the only way he seems to be able to say the really real things -- through stories -- is so simple and so fundamental. You were here, and I loved you. There's the emotional heart of it, at the end of it all, that love and grief and recognition. It's so dizzyingly intimate. There's so much distancing, layers upon layers of obfuscation, to be able to say it. It drives me insane!!!! It makes me feel the same way that 'Poem' by Langston Hughes does:

I loved my friend.  He went away from me.  There's nothing more to say.  The poem ends,  Soft as it began,— I loved my friend. 

He loved his friend. They went away from him. What more is there to say. (Many, many, many things, when you're a compulsive liar and storyteller, but hey sometimes you have to deploy a whole armada of lies to tell one simple truth, I understand, I'm a writer too lol)

Hi Frank, what is your favourite emoji? I like to use the 😳 emoji and the 🤨 emoji. If I had an android phone then I would probably use the 🐢 emoji more often because it looks way better on android.

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I really like this emoji, and have started using it in personal messages sometimes

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The weeping chinstrap is an uncommon and powerful emoji. I commend your choice

Yeah, the weeping chinstrap is a good one. I just really appreciate the mood it evokes, in general – it’s the “the world is full of many little good things, all of which are worthwhile” type of thing.

I just want to reiterate:

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I will now be using this emoji, thanks Frank!

wtff the last one

Look at this weird image