Why is it that I see this picture of myself and I dont recognize this person. I know it's me. I took this. Somehow it just doesn't feel like me. The person in this photo looks sad. The look in her eyes is empty. No light and no motivation. I feel nothing. I look at past photos of myself and I look happy. In past pictures there is light and life still radiating from me. Where did that go? Where did my light go?? How do I get it back?? I just want her back! Fuck depression and anxiety. Where did that even come from? It's never been this bad and I want it to stop. I cant let this over bearing shadow take over me. I want to pull through but every time it gets harder and harder. Find the light. That's the objective. That's my goal and priority. I need to find my light again. But how???