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Dreaming of something better

@dreamingofanotherlife1

TW not trying to inflict my lifestyle on people, just ashamed of mysef on a daily basis. Venting blog
26 | 5'8 | HW: 250 CW: 189 GW: 140
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I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.
you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

never not reblog

Yep.

I did that.

Gained half a stone on holiday. Now I’m back and I’m not happy about being home and fat. I say that but I didn’t even lose much weight before the holiday.

I’m going all in fasting and restricting from Monday. I’ve been quite consistent maintaining my weight my it’s time to go harder to lose it. Now.

I REFUSE to die fat.

P.s. not terminal yet but living with a tumour that’s not cancerous but also in a VERY bad place.

After a month of trying to eat without worrying about calories I’m fed up of food. And tbh I’m not mad.

I’m so happy to finally get back to restricting on Monday.

How do you live your life “normally” (ie having a baby) knowing that your life is going to end in the next ten years (in the best case)?

My SO wants us to live our lives as though my illness won’t kill me but we know it will.

I don’t know what to do.. we’re already several years out of our plan because of this illness. How do we move on and live our lives??

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BLAIR WALDORF’S SECOND WEDDING LOOK Gossip Girl, 6x10: “New York, I Love You XOXO” (2012)

wedding dress by Elie Saab earrings by Sequin headband by Enchanted Atelier

Vegetable Chicken Curry 179cal

My dinner was amazing 🤩 I litterally feel anxious because of how good and filling it was. Like this feels impossible, lol.

Homemade Curry 250grams (About 1.5cups) - 137cal

Riced Cauliflower 1.25cups - 42cal

Recipe:

Makes 1580 grams, about 6 servings. Also added Garlic Powder 0cal, Chili Powder 0cal, Paprika 0cal, Salt and Pepper 0cal all to taste.

POV: You met your goal weight by halloween 🎃 ✧

You’re going to meet up with your friends. You slip on your costume with no struggle. There’s no bulges or anything tight, in fact, it’s a little loose.

You finally get to where your friends are and they’re amazed at your progress. “You’re so tiny!! You look so amazing in your costume!!” They would say.

You go trick or treating, gathering all of your favorite candies. Calories don’t count, today is YOUR day.