i wonder if one day i will stop thinking about you, if there will come a time that my stomach doesn’t drop at the mention of your name
maybe we could’ve stayed friends in another lifetime
update on my insane roommate: she has now fallen asleep with a candle burning TWICE
let’s see how many times i have to remind my GROWN roommate to flush the toilet during this lease cuz we are ALREADY at 7 not even two months in
does anyone have any tips on living with a roommate they CANNOT stand
i just signed on another year lease because i can’t afford to live on my own but this girl is getting worse every day
my partner just moved into their grad school apartment 4.5 hours away from me and one of my roommates and best friends just told me that they’re moving out early and it’s actually their last day in our apartment
i feel like all my people are slowly leaving me and doing great amazing things and i’m just left behind
long distance is actually hell and i swore to myself that i’d never do this again and this one is worth it but holy fUCK it hurt so much and i just want it to stop
i want my person here with me
not me crying cuz i feel like i binged today when i had a completely normal day of eating
i’m so scared i’m gonna gain weight back i wish i didn’t get hunger headaches
so just to update everyone
he apparently also likes me so yay! let’s hope i don’t self sabotage this for myself
DEAR GOD I LIKE THIS STUPID WHITE BOY SO MUCH IM GONNA LOSE IT
Why can he not be a normal human being and let me know where he’s at so I don’t have to play this fucking guessing game and potentially get my heart broken holy FUCK
as the days go on the more comfortable i get with the idea that i’ve fallen for you and that i can get horribly hurt in this process
unfortunately the more that happens the more my own brain tries to convince me that there’s a chance that you could like me back and that’s how i’m gonna get fucked
you ever can’t be alone but there’s no one you can be around that you’re that comfortable with so you’re forced to be alone
all of my friends are so sad
i wish i could take their pain away and feel it for myself so they could all be happy again
there’s not much i can do except listen to them most times and i feel like i can never do enough
la-laborista-republiko
My disdain for cops is institutional, not individual. Just because you may have a positive personal relationship with someone who is a cop doesn’t change the fact that the law enforcement system in this country is rooted in white supremacy and is used to repress and control the working class while protecting the elite.
All cops have signed up to enforce a system which is oppressing marginalized people in this country on a daily basis. Your personal relationship with an agent of oppression does not change this fact.
bro I am really not handling this quarantine shit well but it’ll go back and forth
so a few days i’ll have a good time think I can do this for another month or so and out of nowhere I’ll have a hell day where I need to go outside and see my friends etc cuz my mental health is suffering
anyone else? just me? cool
my #1 piece of advice for anyone who is not used being stuck in their homes is to remember, every day, to do things that ground you.
playing on the computer, watching movies and tvs, even reading books - these are all great ways to make time pass quickly BUT they are not grounding activities, they are activities that instead make you more prone to getting lost in your head a bit - you look up and it’s 2 in the morning and you don’t know where the day went.
so alternate any activity that involves escapism (text messaging, movies, video games, ect.) with a grounding activity. otherwise, if you’re like me, you’ll start to feel all weird and floaty and nothing matters and what is time and when was the last time i ate.
obviously, work with what resources you have and keep in mind any issues, physical or otherwise, that might make these suggestions not right for you.
also, i like to do all of these with my preschooler and toddler, because they benefit from the shared activity and from the grounding themselves as well. i’m not a board-game mom or a mom that likes to coordinate cute art projects or activities - i just don’t have the focus for that (adhd). instead i prefer to just share activities with my kids as described below.
suggested grounding activities:
* cooking a meal. not microwaving something, preparing a meal that involves chopping vegetables, requires you to stand over a steaming pan stirring constantly. bake a boxed cake for no reason other than you need a grounding activity. chop an onion. make ants-on-a-log. look at the weird leftover stuff in the pantry and make something equally weird with it. (my husband likes to do this.)
* walking (my favorite). if you can, go outside to walk, if not, even walking around the rooms in your house will help. take your kids on a walk. raining? go for a (brief) walk anyway. my kids LOVE a rainy day walk because they get to splash in muddy puddles.
* loud, cheerful music that you sing along to. this is not the time for wistful, angsty breakup music. you want abba. you want cyndi lauper. you want “you can call me al.” PLEASE dance along. PLEASE sing as loud as you can. kids will love having a dance party.
* making art. glue popsickle sticks, paint with watercolors, anything messy or tactile is A+++. everyone has 500 rolls of toilet paper, use those empty rolls for art projects. playdoh. molding clay. my kids’ favorite activity is stringing beads on pipe cleaners.
* heavy work. if you have the resources and a backyard, a good thing to do is to go outside and start moving heavy things. clear out a spot for a garden. move bricks. clean up trash. if you don’t have outside space, move your furniture around the room. push and pull and lift, if you can. alphabetize your book collection, moving your hardbacks from shelf to shelf.
* picking a small area or room and cleaning it. what i mean is: washing a window, wiping a baseboard, scrubbing a tub. doesn’t have to be the whole room. just one thing. what i am NOT suggesting: organizing closets and shelves. organizing requires making decisions. you are probably not in the right headspace for descision-making right now. please chose MINDLESS physical grounding activities. as an added bonus, cleaning makes you feel productive AND soothes your anxiety over germs. for example, my kids LOVE to mop. they beg for that priviledge. let them mop! make a big wet mess on the floor and then dry it up with towels.
* play with toys. i am literally suggesting pulling out a box of blocks and sitting on the floor with your kids, if you have them, or with your pets, if you don’t. blocks are great for grounding me (and my kids). build towers, roads, cities, ect. it’s tactile, mindless and meditative, and it’s probably something you don’t usually do every day, so it’s novel. other suggestions: barbies. matchbox cars. nothing that requires batteries or makes noise. no lego sets - an open-ended activity. don’t try to follow directions. just get a bunch of foam blocks and make a tower.
* paint your nails. paint your kids’ nails. both my son and daughter love having their nails painted. it’s tactile, it’s good physical contact, it tickles a little, it’s mindless.
* play with a pet. order a laser pointer for your kitty or get a squeaky ball for the dog. get on the floor.
these are some suggestions off the top of my head, please feel free to add more
