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My name is Matthew (he/they) and I will never remember to update my age so just know I was born in 97. I like games (oh wow :O) Ya I just put random stuff on here so don't be surprised. NSFW stuff might show up, but that's not a common occurence.

Feel uncomfortable going to Cheesecake Factory when it’s so under the watch of the eye of Sauron

I made this post in 2016 and it got 3 notes, suddenly people are interacting with it. What is happening how did you even find it

How doe this post have less than 1,000 notes when “The Eye Of Sauron at the Cheesecake factory” has been living rent-free in my head for almost a decade?

after a suicide attempt in 2016

“When Daddy comes in, he carries you to bed. Is there anything you feel like you could eat, Pokey? Anything at all? All you can imagine putting in your mouth is a cold plum, one with really tight skin on the outside but gum-shocking sweetness inside. And he and your mother discuss where he might find some this late in the season. Mother says hell I don’t know. Further north, I’d guess. The next morning, you wake up in your bed and sit up. Mother says, Pete, I think she’s up. He hollers in, You ready for breakfast, Pokey. Then he comes in grinning, still in his work clothes from the night before. He’s holding a farm bushel. The plums he empties onto the bed river toward you through folds in the quilt. If you stacked them up, they’d fill the deepest bin at the Piggly Wiggly. Damned if I didn’t get the urge to drive to Arkansas last night, he says. Your mother stands behind him saying he’s pure USDA crazy. Fort Smith, Arkansas. Found a roadside stand out there with a feller selling plums. And I says, Buddy, I got a little girl sick back in Texas. She’s got a hanker for plums and ain’t nothing else gonna do. It’s when you sink your teeth into the plum that you make a promise. The skin is still warm from riding in the sun in Daddy’s truck, and the nectar runs down your chin. And you snap out of it. Or are snapped out of it. Never again will you lay a hand against yourself, not so long as there are plums to eat and somebody-anybody-who gives enough of a damn to haul them to you. So long as you bear the least nibblet of love for any other creature in this dark world, though in love portions are never stingy. There are no smidgens or pinches, only rolling abundance. That’s how you acquire the resolution for survival that the coming years are about to demand. You don’t earn it. It’s given.”

excerpt from Cherry by Mary Karr, context being after a suicide attempt at age 13

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Some context: Texas and Arkansas share a corner border. Now, Texas is FECKING HUGE and there are many, many parts of Texas that cannot visit Arkansas overnight, but there are parts where it’s no trouble at all.

However, those places of Texas that are close to Arkansas, do not include “close to Fort Smith, Arkansas.”

The closest Texas gets to Fort Smith is about 185 miles (about 300km), at “a little closer than Texarkana.” (Dallas, fwiw, is about 275 miles/450km from Fort Smith.)

So the dad in this story drove at least SEVEN HOURS round trip, to pick up a bushel of plums for his little girl, in the hope that some almost-out-of-season fruit would convince her to go on living.

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Okay.

It’s bigger than this.

According to Wikipedia, the poet Mary Karr was born in 1955 and grew up in Groves, Texas and “lived there until she moved to Los Angeles in 1972.” So she would have been there when she was 13 and attempted suicide.

According to Google Maps, the shortest driving distance between Groves, TX and Fort Smith, AR is 439 miles (or 706 km for metric using folks).

That’s almost 8 hours of driving.

Almost 16 hours roundtrip.

(I assume he broke every speed limit he could.)

That’s how much this man loved his daughter.

May we all be worthy of such love.

May we all be capable of giving such love.

May we all have people in our lives with which we can share this love.

tv show. white man. hes sad. he has to do important thing but its hard. his girlfriend died probably. TWSIT!! theres another white man. maybe MORE. hes sad too but for different reason. its very deep probably. theyre best friends but not gay but maybe they are haha fandom!!! every girl dies or goes away. just not gay white man friend. 10 seasons 100 million viewers. what will moody white men do this week.

This post just turned 10 years old which is pretty fucked up actually. When I made this post people would say things like “actually supernatural only has 8 seasons” but here we are in 2023 so who’s laughing now. Not me I want to die

me when i have a reliable public transport network and guaranteed housing and food and water and electricity and healthcare and democratic control over my workplace and no boss who can threaten to fire me and destroy my life and no landlord who can threaten to evict me and do the same but i can't buy a banana at the grocery store: my life has been immeasurably ruined

like not that "every worker in the imperial core will have a miserable ascetic monk-like life to atone for their sins" isn't a real position held by like some fringe maoist-third-worldists i guess but people framing "under socialism the citizens of the imperial core will no longer experience the benefits of imperial exploitation" as "socialists are saying they'll make people's lives worse!" is so silly. life quality is when many banana product and the less banana product you can buy the worse your life is

One of the best letters I’ve ever seen just popped up on my Facebook memories. Still makes me laugh.

As today is the 50th anniversary of the moon landing, it’s a great time to revisit Dinah from Devon’s memory of this historic event. And yes, still makes me laugh.

Today is the 54th anniversary of the moon landing, but Dinah’s diary entry is still absolutely magnificent.

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this was so wild

Someone explain

The first sentence says 32 and 13 implying that the speaker is 32 years old and their girlfriend is 13 years old, which is both highly inappropriate and illegal. The next sentence reveals the speaker was talking about their game levels, not their ages, which is perfectly okay.

In their reply to the audience they then say they are picking her up from middle school, again implying that their girlfriend is underage, but quickly state she’s grading papers letting us know she’s a teacher, definitely an adult, and there no reason to be upset.

The rollercoaster gif portrays how switching from upset and worried to relieved in such a short period of time feels emotionally.

The next meme shows the guy panicking from misunderstanding, then feeling relieved and calm realizing the truth, only to panic over the next misunderstanding and then calm again when hearing the end.

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the above explanation is followed by a picture of data from star trek with a speech bubble's tail coming out of him, implying he's the one saying all of that, which is humerous because the above text is written in a style similar to his speech patterns, and with a subject matter he would enjoy

This is the worst website ever and I love it.

I’d rather see Tumblr die than see it stop being like this.

You said the idea of the American melting pot is bad. I would appreciate it if you could explain why it's a bad idea. I hope it's clear that I'm trying very hard to ask this question in good faith and in a respectful manner, because I am genuinely interested in your thoughts on this topic.

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sure. i think that narrative is bad because of what it purposefully excludes -- the story of "this person came to the usa to seek a better life" sounds inspirational if you leave out the part that asks "why did they think they'd have a better life there?". which is that the USA is very wealthy (because of its imperialism) and the countries that immigrants to the US come from are often poor (because of US imperialism) or war-torn (because of US imperialism). and that's to say nothing of the grotesque recent turn to "america was built by immigrants!" (cf. hamilton) -- which draws a completely twisted parallel between the genocidal settler colonization of north america and modern day migrants fleeing the effects of usamerican imperialism to the state that caused it where they are exploited and marginalised

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Even the immigrants from countries that were not victims of US imperialism (Germans, Poles, Italians, Irish) first faced brutal economic exploitation and racism* until they were eventually deemed useful enough to white supremacy and colonialism to be inducted into Whiteness and the American colonial project as a whole, at which point they by and large became its willing participants. The melting pot has never been real.

*not remotely comparable in intensity or depth to the racism directed at Black or Indigenous peoples of course

You said the idea of the American melting pot is bad. I would appreciate it if you could explain why it's a bad idea. I hope it's clear that I'm trying very hard to ask this question in good faith and in a respectful manner, because I am genuinely interested in your thoughts on this topic.

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sure. i think that narrative is bad because of what it purposefully excludes -- the story of "this person came to the usa to seek a better life" sounds inspirational if you leave out the part that asks "why did they think they'd have a better life there?". which is that the USA is very wealthy (because of its imperialism) and the countries that immigrants to the US come from are often poor (because of US imperialism) or war-torn (because of US imperialism). and that's to say nothing of the grotesque recent turn to "america was built by immigrants!" (cf. hamilton) -- which draws a completely twisted parallel between the genocidal settler colonization of north america and modern day migrants fleeing the effects of usamerican imperialism to the state that caused it where they are exploited and marginalised

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Even the immigrants from countries that were not victims of US imperialism (Germans, Poles, Italians, Irish) first faced brutal economic exploitation and racism* until they were eventually deemed useful enough to white supremacy and colonialism to be inducted into Whiteness and the American colonial project as a whole, at which point they by and large became its willing participants. The melting pot has never been real.

*not remotely comparable in intensity or depth to the racism directed at Black or Indigenous peoples of course

Sharing the secrets of your hearth with strangers who will never be able to meet or thank you. Honoring the dead through learning their traditions of the home; emulation and exaltation. A good carrot cake.

am i only one who thinks this is dumb af? just say capitalist class instead of billionaires or 1%?? also lol making billionaires into some meow meows who can't help exploiting others because of capitalism since they were 'born this way' as if they aren't ones actively upholding capitalism?? this whole post is literally no material analysis in sight just vibes 😭

anticapitalist hate group leader vladimir lenin

no because it's truly how this post comes across💀never underestimate how much libs hate common people.