I've come back. Not just for a tcc blog but for the fact that I've found I can find feelings in anyone's eyes. This cannot be contained in me because it has started to consume my actual relationship. I must tell you about the first loves I see and hear and know that will forever remain untouched.
I miss you and there is nothing more than missing you other than losing you in the crowd of liking someone eles
Im drunnk
Don't love me
“I want to be the last person who ever kisses you… That sounds bad, like a death threat or something. What I’m trying to say is, you’re it. This is it for me.”
— “Eleanor & Park” by Rainbow Rowell. (via krisssmm)
“‘I just can’t believe that life would give us to each other,’ he said, ‘and then take it back.’ ‘I can,’ she said. ‘Life’s a bastard.’”
— Rainbow Rowell, in Eleanor and Park.
I hope this is just me in a rut and that I am truly happy with you because how can I want to move on but also love you so hard. This is so ridiculous that I hope it's not real. I hope it's a bad dream or I'm just reading a Rollercoaster of a book and can wake up from it in my head. I am really just hoping you either are the end or this is our end.
Reading eleanor and park again has made me realize I crave the feeling of first love. Do I want to stay in this comfortable love or is it Okay to feel first love again? Maybe young love is only when you're young. Isn't 20 young? Aren't I still young?
Sharon Olds, from "Something Is Happening", One Secret Thing: Poems
You’re lighting up
my flame
from the inside.
How did you get in?
I don’t even know
how to get in.
Today his name was J.R
He's an older man working 2 less years at his job than my age. The conversation was business. The way he spoke, his tone, wasn't. I enjoyed listening to him speak like I used to being a school girl with a handsome teacher. The extra laughs were thrown in for good measure. I sung my sweet tune just to stay on his mind for a bit after I left.
I always want to stay on their minds longer.
Maybe that's my problem?
There’s a version of us that survived somewhere…right????
aiitsu-ocean
I need.....
You in my bed. I need to fall asleep holding your hand. Feeling your skin touching mine after embracing.
aiitsu-ocean
Memory
You say that you have bad memory and so do I. I have settled on the fact that we only remember the moments that impacted us most. You remember when you first kissed my cheek. I remember what you were wearing when we first talked. You remembered what my favorite sport was even though we didn’t talk for a year. I remember the first time I truly never wanted to let you go. So you may not remember what you had for dinner yesterday but you remember the first time we kissed.
aiitsu-ocean
“I watched the man I love love someone else and it killed me.”
— Ugly Betty
listen man, *pulls heart shaped lollipop out of my mouth with a pop noise and points it at you* im gay and not in the mood