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@diphyleia-acanthus

Jon/Cornea, he/him, key/key, @freakoville, bodily 18

love scares me. i don't know if im full or devoid of it. I've never felt loved by another person. im desperate to be loved, im desperate to feel fulfilled in that way. but as things stand now that may never happen.

im not neutral on the whole "romance" thing. more, i am simultaneously against and for it. i shpuld like to be loved, including romantically, but the thought is.. terrifying

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I think that in real life…. Relationships r like . Your partner WILL ‘trauma dump’ on you. You will have to perform ‘emotional labor’ for your partner. Your partner will make mistakes. You will also do all of these things. The very nature of love is irrational and problematic and difficult …. To expect a relationship to be free of these things is strange to me…. The point is that your relationship to that person is ultimately worth it, and worth growing with them, helping each other, seeing the worst parts of another person and being able to love them anyway

I'd love to read my friends work but i just.. cannot. as hard as i try. i think I'd enjoy it, if i could, but it feels... wrong....

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Sorry I just hate parents in general. They’ve been flopping for generations and then it’s everyone else’s job to be more emotionally mature than them u have to literally think like a fuckin Buddha at age 4 to survive them

"what if i became a sugar mommy" you are an 18 year old man who hasnt finished school yet