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INTP | girl | 22 | Aquarius | Posting some random stuff | I follow back | unfollow=unfollow | The cruelest thing of all is false hope.
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mochiswifey
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mochiswifey

OPEN YOUR EYES

Saying goodbye to my comfort character.

“You need to wake up.” He says caressing my back trying to comfort me.

“I don’t wanna wake up. I’m fine not waking up.”

Green grass and beautiful night sky filled with shining stars. Me laying on his chest, legs between his and huge strong arms caging me. There’s nothing more I could ask for.

“But you need to, I’m not real.”

His words broke my heart. I know what he said was true. I knew it from the start. But my stupid little brain can’t register a simple fact.

“You feel real.” I whispered clenching on the fabric of his shirt. He laughs and it was heavenly. Something I’m proud of to be the only one who could hear it.

“You’re all I could think about. You’re all I need.” Tears started falling from my eyes. He lifted my chin making me look up to him.

His eyes…. I love them so much. His lips and his nose, everything is perfect about him.

I want to stay with him forever because I know he’ll never hurt me. He’ll never break my heart.

And most importantly….

He’ll always choose me over anyone.

“I’m not taking you away from the world you belong to. When you open your eyes…. I will be gone. But know I’ll always be in your heart.”

I don’t wanna open my eyes. I just want to stay with him.

“Please. You need to wake up.”

“Why can’t we be together?” I asked him and he softly chuckled before placing a kiss on my forehead.

“We may not live in the same world now, but maybe we’ll be together in another life.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” We shared a passionate kiss. And with that kiss we professed our love for each other.

“Now open your eyes.”

I nodded and I slowly buried my head on the crook of his neck. I don’t want to let go but it’s what he wants. And it is what’s right.

“Just a little longer…” I whispered savoring my moments with him. I tried to remember as much as possible. His smell, the way his body feels so warm and so comforting. I tried to remembered it all and not long after I started to feel myself getting pulled out.

“I’ll search for you and we will be together. We’ll be together in a beach, a theater. Anywhere you like. I promise you. I promise.”

Waking up my heart aches as I realized it was his final goodbye. I knew I wouldn’t see him again and I knew I will be only able to imagine his touch throughout this lifetime.

But….

I believe him.

I believe that he’ll keep his words.

I believe that he will search for me in the next life just like I will.

Life is cruel for not letting him be real. But I believe that love always prevail.

For now, I will continue my life knowing my next will be with him.

dabisqueen
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cherry-valentine

I think the reason Dabi resonates with so many people as a character is that tons of people have a lot of pent up rage at their abusive or neglectful parents that they, for whatever reason, can’t safely express. And seeing Dabi express that rage so freely is actually pretty cathartic.

chuuyasboots

Ok so this post is extremely long and I put it all together for my blogs Feeling sad page but as I don’t have a huge amount of followers I realize so many people are not seeing this information so I’m posting it here too!

alternatives without harming yourself:

  • holding/squeezing ice.
  • splashing your face with water.
  • getting a rubber band and snapping it against your skin (this could hurt, though it’s better than other ways that people usually choose to self-harm).
  • take a hot shower or bath.
  • eat something sour. it will take your mind of the urge. (lemon, sour lollies)
  • massage where you want to self-harm.
  • get a red pen or red paint and draw/paint over where you usually self-harm.
  • remind yourself as to why you shouldn’t do it. (scars, harms organs, leave memories etc…)
  • describe what you are feeling. (is the urge/pain in your chest, fists, legs, arms, head).

killing yourself will not help. it is not a solution.

you have your whole life ahead of you. you have so many more years that you can accomplish things in. for example;

  • having a family.
  • getting married.
  • to watch the sun rise.
  • to watch the sun set.
  • to save someone else’s life.
  • finish school.
  • get your dream job.
  • to laugh.
  • to smile.
  • to go camping.
  • travel to new places.
  • to wake up every morning to the person you love.
  • friends.
  • family.
  • to keep that promise you made.
  • to accomplish a goal.
  • to meet your idol.
  • to listen to new music.
  • theme parks.
  • video games.
  • chocolate.
  • to be able to look back and say “i made it”.

what you’re going through is temporary.

in case you need to hear this:

  • you are loved.
  • you are wanted.
  • you are needed.
  • you are beautiful.
  • you are handsome.
  • you are important.
  • you are not alone.
  • you are okay.
  • you are strong.
  • you are worth it.
  • you are smart.
  • you are not a failure.
  • you are useful.
  • you are going to be okay.

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lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

trevor project: 1-866-488-7386

sexuality support: 1-800-246-7743

eating disorders hotline: 1-847-831-3438

rape and sexual assault: 1-800-656-4673

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runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

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Dont forget about Crisis Text Line! 

Text HOME to 741-741

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bristlee1

for those who might need it

the one that stuck out to me was “save someone’s life”

you’re not alone.

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thestarmirror

This is do important

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booksartandpoetryy

this is so so important.

katsukikitten
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writethatdown

forgive yourself. forgive yourself for all the versions you couldn't become. forgive yourself for the wrong things you said. forgive yourself for not knowing any better at certain point of your life. for fucking things up so much that the grief still haunts you. forgive yourself for the darker and shadowed parts of you. you have to learn to integrate all parts of you, even the ones you desperately want to disown. it'll be alright.