“I don’t know how to love without using my whole heart. I don’t know what its like to love someone ‘half way’. I practice giving love in the same way I’d like to receive it.”

— Reyna Biddy

sylvia plath, ‘elm’

[ID: “I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me; all day I feel its soft, feathery turnings, its malignity.” end ID]

i'm very [i love you most ardently] [it's rotten work not to me not if it's you] [i can take care of myself just fine. no. what do you mean no? no] [i can't explain the state that i'm in the state of my heart he was my best friend] [you want to die for love you always have] [you are my sweetest downfall i loved you first] [i should have gone through life half awake if you'd had the decency to leave me alone] [he's more myself than i am, whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same] [he was pointing at the moon but i was looking at his hand] [it was not intended as a compliment. it was a confession] [he is half of my soul, as the poets say]

Things I learned from studying ancient history:

  • 3500 years ago, the Minoans had hot and cold taps and flushing toilets
  • the name Alexandra is at least 3200 years old
  • when Cimbri warriors crossed the Alps in 101 BC, they stripped naked, sat on their shields and slid down the snowy mountainside to frighten the Romans
  • Xerxes whipped the sea three hundred times and threw shackles into the water to punish it for destroying his bridge
  • Caligula named his horse consul
  • the Ancient Greeks once tried to domesticate snails
  • teenage king Mursili I walked his army from the mountains of central Anatolia, across the Syrian desert and all the way to Mesopotamia, attacked Babylon, stole the doors, and left
  • Polybius spends an entire book of his Histories criticising Timaeus, another historian (sample chapters include Timaeus wrong about Libya, The errors of Timaeus and Timaeus blinded by personal malignity)
  • there was an actual man in Ancient Greece named Misogynes
  • people who say ancient history is boring are wrong

Don’t forget Konan the Athenian

^I feel the urge to clarify a common misconception just because I saw the name of Caligula and I’m that person:

There is no actual proof that Caligula named Incitatus (the horse) senator. Actually, he probably intended to name him senator as an elaborate prank to the Senate (to show them his power and their inutility) but he never actually did it and the authors we derive our information on Caligula from are HEAVILY biased. Results? We know almost nothing certain on the guy.

Not to sound like a Caligula apologist on main but the lack of certainty regarding him is infuriating.

Autumn makes me want to live in a small town with tons of history and character. Leaf-strewn cobblestone streets. Old buildings and homes that range from small cottages to large estates. Maple, oak, and pine trees line the streets and cluster in yards, and when they all turn orange and gold in the fall it’s the most beautiful sight. Small local businesses thrive. It’s walking distance to your favorite coffee shop or diner. There’s an ancient library on the edge of town with the greatest selection of books, comfy armchairs, tables, and big windows to read by. Time moves slower there. Everything is safe.