drunk journal excerpt #1
October 24, 2015
Hi, It’s your birthday yet again. This day last year, we ended things for good. We had a good run and you taught me so much, I’m forever thankful for that.. for you. I’m sorry for the way things ended but I believe it’s for the best. I’m probably no longer on your mind and I hope that’s the case. You’re still on mine from time to time and maybe someday that will change. I no longer love you nor do I miss you, but bloody hell, you were my first love and that will never change no matter what I’ve said, what I continue to say or do… What would be our 3 year anniversary is coming up… Yet another date I won’t ever forget; one that I can’t forget. Our love and relationship ran it’s course, but there’s so much I want to share with you. You’re no longer in my life, so I’ll share with you what I have to say in a letter you’ll never read. Jane* recently came out to me. Can you believe it? Our Jane*. The one that bent over backwards to help us keep our relationship together for as long as it lasted. She came out to me and I couldn’t help but think about you; how it would’ve been so much more special with you there. She’s so in love. Every feeling she describes about her and her love is everything that we once had. I’m so happy for her. I’m so happy that she finally gets to experience the happiness we once shared. I just hope things work out for them. I hope they get their happily ever after. Jane’s* proposing to her on our anniversary date… I even helped her plan out the proposal. Damn. Anywho, it’s your birthday.. A day I tried so hard to forget, but I just couldn’t. This day is forever engraved into my mind but I no longer remember how old you are or how old you’re turning. After a year, the memories are finally starting to fade; slowly but surely. Happy birthday, stranger. I hope it’s a good one. -M.L.
