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@desjoursalamer

A Female from europe with a difficult name.
There’s a regular pattern now: in the morning the day begins calmly, then by the evening I’m sunk in melancholy or pathos — but always on the edge of tears or beyond.

Simone de Beauvoir, in a letter to Jean-Paul Sartre, 8 October 1939, Letters to Sartre (via wordscanbeenough)

“When you are born,” the golem said softly, “your courage is new and clean. You are brave enough for anything: crawling off of staircases, saying your first words without fearing that someone will think you are foolish, putting strange things in your mouth. But as you get older, your courage attracts gunk, and crusty things, and dirt, and fear, and knowing how bad things can get and what pain feels like. By the time you’re half-grown, your courage barely moves at all, it’s so grunged up with living. So every once in awhile, you have to scrub it up and get the works going, or else you’ll never be brave again.

Catherynne M. Valente: The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making (via fuckyeahithoughtso)

By now, I thought the world remembered me, thought I’d left something big enough to be recognized for. But sometimes at night, when the world is almost tender, a silent blue, & the past is a faraway hand waving from a car I can no longer recall, it engulfs me- I have been practicing absence all my life. My alone has grown its own body, claimed a name & a place to sleep. In the dream I thought I heard the world weep, thought I heard it call out to me, like a mother in unknowing. Thought we’d reached the scene where they pull the body from the fog & return.  But the world was a silent blue & I was just silent.

“Silent Blue” (via wordscanbeenough)

Do you ever just suddenly feel really shitty because you’re not particularly good at anything and you don’t know what you wanna do with your life and like you didn’t ask to be born and have to deal with all of this and yet here you are, confused and anxious and paying to exist on this trash planet