“so what are your hobbies” laptop. my hobby is laptop
French doors close off an office area from the master bedroom. The solution can offer the most private place to put a home office; in this instance, it allows a writer an escape from a young, active family.
The Not So Big House - A Blueprint for the Way We Really Live, 1998
There’s a difference between being happy and being distracted from sadness.
“Suicidal vs. Suicide”
When someone ends up committing suicide, everyone is there, they feel bad, they say they didn’t “see the signs” they talk about how amazing you were, and so forth. But if you tell someone you’re suicidal, everything is different, no one wants to solve the problem, matter of fact, half of the time they act like it isn’t a problem, that you won’t ever “do it” that it’ll just “go away.” They treat it like a joke, well let me tell you something, being suicidal isn’t a joke, people do consider it as an only option, and treating the problem like it doesn’t matter will not get you anywhere, the only place it’s going to get you is to a funeral. If someone tells you they’re suicidal, don’t push them away, instead try to be the one to keep them here.
The only thing that comforts me is the fact that I could just kill myself tomorrow and won’t have to worry about another thing ever again.
i always feel like i don’t deserve something and then i ruin it myself
Nobody ever talks about how selfless it is to choose, over and over again, to not commit suicide. Nobody ever acknowledges the tremendous sacrifice suicidal people make every time we choose not to kill ourselves. When a person who is suffering so horribly that death seems like their best option decides not to take their one way out, and to instead remain in hell, day after day, month after month, year after year, because they don’t want to hurt the people they love, they are doing something extraordinary. Not killing yourself when it’s all you want to do is the purest act of love I can imagine. Dying for someone is easy - you don’t have to deal with any of the consequences, you have your moment of nobility and then it’s all over. But living for someone, when the simple fact of consciousness is literal torture for you? Every single suicidal person who ever made a choice to not kill themselves in a moment of misery is a goddamn hero in my eyes. Wanting to die and still surviving is an act of titanic courage and self-sacrifice. We deserve more credit for it.
i want things simple. i want them handed to me on a platter. i want them hand fed right into my mouth.
in another universe we are good for each other and the time is right
tumblr being all adults nowadays is so funny because my mutuals are either unemployed chainsmokers or Ezra, Bioengineering PHD Candidate at University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill
one of the important lessons to learn about adult life is that the gap between an unemployed chainsmoker and a bioengineering phd candidate is actually not that large
