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delirious--mistakesss

Me and my boyfriend, cj, have been together for two years next month and we've lived together the past year and a half. When we started dating I was a size 2 in pants. There's that saying "in a healthy relationship you gain weight overtime" well that saying was true for me. Over time I had become a size 5 still comfortable in my skin after being with him and having my daughter 3 years prior to meeting him. We have an apartment together, we have a dog together, my daughter calls him daddy because that's the only dad she knows and it was his choice to do that, we now have added our 2 month old son to that addition and I also get to call cj my handsome fiance with this ring in my finger. We both have full time jobs and see each other mostly at night. Sometimes it's so hard but together we've made it. Although my story is about something else.....I'm now a size 10. In the two years weve been together I went from 2 to 10 after having our son and my second child. For days, weeks maybe after having him I was uncomfortable in my own skin. I was not use to the weight I put on and couldn't put off. I cried in the shower while he held me and I cried in bed while he held me. Never the less he never discouraged me. He told and tells me everyday I look beautiful and how hot my "mom body" as he calls it is. He hugs me from behind at some point in time every day, and he rubs my now super soft mom tummy at night, he loves my butt stretch marks from my now wider hips, and he adores the little bit of tummy fat I now have (which feels like a lot to me). He loves grabbing my waist and obsessed over my body when I change in front of him, He always wants to kiss me and loves my thick thighs even if they could suffocate him 😂 he also doesn't mind my now bigger stretch marked boobs that constantly leak milk still. I feel so lucky and thankful to be marrying a true man. A man who without a doubt loves every inch of me whether I'm a size 2 or a size 10. He has shown me the past two months what it means to love yourself. And he's taught me how to love myself again. There's no better feeling than laying down at night in bed with my fiancé and feeling our legs wrap and snuggle into his chest while our son sleeps in his bassinet and our daughter is tucked into her bed. So if you want to know what true love is I hope you find it like I did.

#true love