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I wrote what I felt ....... dead inside living with a fake smile

falling in love prompts

➼ "Please don’t touch me. I can’t fall any deeper."

➼ "This is all your fault. If only you weren’t so fucking beautiful and smart and funny and perfect, I might not have fallen for you.

➼ "I might be going a little crazy thinking about B." *C raises an eyebrow*. "Fine. Maybe a lot more than a little"

➼ "Whether I’m in love with you or not, I know one thing for sure. You will be the reason I cease to exist."

➼ "I want you to be my first and my last."

➼ "Are you in love with them?" "If I’m not already, I’m damn close to being."

➼ "Is this love or torture?"

➼ "We’re friends, right?" "I didn’t know friends kissed each other."

➼ "But…how could you love me?" "How could I not?"

➼ "You love them, don’t you?" "How did you know? I told [friend] not to say anything." "They didn’t have to say anything."

➼ "I love you as much as I hate you." "Well then, I absolutely despise you."

➼ "I think I hate you a little for making me adore you so much."

➼ "Well you know what they say. Love is equal to madness." "…no one says that." "Your eyes do."

Suna hai tumhe kitaabein bahot pasand hai

dekho maine tumhare liye kitaabein padhna shuru kar diya hai

Suna hai tumhe phool bahot pasand hai

dekho maine phoolon ko samtena shuru kar diya hai

Suna hai tumhe chaand bahot pasand hai

dekho ab mujhe har raat besabri se chaand ka intezar rehta hai

Suna hai tumhe main bhi bahot pasand hai

dekho maine khud ko sawarna shuru kar diya hai

Remember Ustaad Ghulam Ali sahab's ..
Toh Kya Yeh Tay Hai Tujhe, Umr Bhar Nahi Milna
Chalo Zamane Ki Khaatir, Ye Zabr Bhi Seh Le
Kabhi Mile Bhi Agar, Toot Kar Nahi Milna
Ye Kon Chupke Se, Tanhaiyon Main Kehta Hai
Mere Baghair Sakoon, Umr Bhar Nahi Milna
Rah-E-Wafa K Musafir, Ko Kon Samjhaaye
Kay Is Safar Mein Koi Humsafar Nahi Milna
Juda To Jab Bhi Hue, Dil Ko Yun Laga Jaise
Ke Ab Gaye To Kabhi, Loat Kar Nahi Milna
Toh Kya Yeh Tay Hai Tujhe, Umr Bhar Nahi Milna

i was just a kid

unable to breathe

finding beauty and pain in everything

my friend is perfect, i wish i could be her

my parents are perfect, i wish i could be a better daughter

the sunrise is perfect, so why am i still depressed

looking at the sky wondering why?

why can’t i be more than what i am

unable to breathe

i was never a kid

I'm not well. I hate the way I look. I feel like I annoy people anytime I talk to them or are around them. I overexplain myself constantly because I feel like people won't believe me. I constantly feel like I have to validate myself. I feel like I'm constantly being rejected. I feel ashamed when I feel these feelings like I don't deserve to feel them. I feel like my mind is constantly running. I feel constantly overwhelmed, stressed & exhausted when I havent done anything which makes me feel lazy and ashamed. I have days where I cry so hard its gut wrenching & hurts to breath.

I feel this way because of my mom.

I feel this way because of my medical trauma.

I feel this way because of my personal trauma.

I try so hard. I read the books. I journal. I self care. I don't try to force it, I let myself cry when I feel like crying. Then I get better for awhile but it's always short lived. All this work is just more I have to do on top of constantly feeling overwhelmed & exhausted & on top of the exhausting homework. I can't take it anymore. Trying to make myself better is just to much work. Work that isn't working. I'm sick of trying to keep my face above the water with all these weights tied to my legs. My legs are tired.

Im ready to succumb.

No one is going to be okay ! Everyone dying inside with pain 😔

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