Trying to be okay, and failing so hard. My mind is constantly filled with static and ringing. I just want to be able to focus and have one coherent thought without feeling like I'm fighting tooth and nail just to be in the moment.

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I'm so not okay, and I'm not sure how long my fraying sanity is gonna last.

Night times with Orion. He likes guard me at the steps outside for a little while before patrolling the whole backyard. When he comes back from patrolling he'll sit down on the step in front of me and let me cuddle him which he rarely let's me do normally... it's so soothing to just space out and not have to worry for a few about anything. I wish my camera was strong enough to pick up the stars at night... they're lovely.

You know you're really stressed out when someone else's Service Dog, rushes over to you just to start alerting.

I was at the vets office filling out forms for my dog Orion, and in comes a fully vested service dog walking obediently beside their owner until they passed by me. Then they just turned around and started pawing desperately at my side and the whole time the owner was just staring at me with increasing concern while they tried to keep moving, the whole while their service dog kept trying to paw to get my attention.

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I've been increasingly stressed out to the point of near faints.... I haven't fainted yet and I'm sure I'm just one issue away from a full blown panic attack. My bpm has been near constantly in the 120 range and I feel like I've run a marathon with how drained I constantly feel. All I desperately want is for the pain to stop...

Somethings never change!

This is my dog Orion, he's currently 6 months old now.

He loves to sleep on the rug under the dinning room table, he was very tired from his recent bath.