How long will it go on for?

Sometimes you just feel like you want to be alone. You want to be alone, yet you want to speak to that special person. The second your phone vibrates, you reach straight for it, hoping it would be that person. Instead, you see it’s just another email, notification or message from your friend that you’re not going to respond to. 

So what happens when you’re mostly at your time of need, yet the person you love the most is too busy to bother with you? What can you do? You cry. You wish the pain would go away, but you’re so madly in-love that it’s just not an option. It burns. Oh believe me, it burns so much. 

Rather than having a laugh with friends and enjoying myself as I usually do, I’m sat counting seconds as they go by until I can at least try to get some sleep.

No, my eyes are not red because I’m tired. Your body on the outside represents you on the inside. My eyes are red because I am burning inside. What I’m feeling now is exactly what I never wanted to feel again.  

I hope one day you will read this and realise that this was the time that I needed you the most.

Exactly what I'm feeling at the moment