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That was some rs when Morty said that

Erhai Lake. (2017)

To man I still desire,

I am drawn to you. The absence of you in my life makes me feel incomplete. My thoughts somehow drift to you. Even when I ruminate, I somehow come back to you. Is it because you were the last man I wanted? I don’t really know if I really want you but I feel like I need to let you know. But time is not on my side. Love is a strong word, but I wanna know everything about the current you. I see you, hear you & want you. I can’t stand it. I feel like a coin where I want you but at the same time I want to forget you. Can u assure me that you will need me? I still see that passion in your eyes, you can’t hide it. But you sure are denying it. Please don’t make me feel confused again. Maybe one day I’ll tell the man I desire how I feel.

wanting attention but only from one specific person? big mood

Stuck between needing someone that doesn’t want me and rejecting someone that needs me. Polarized but on the same coin. I can’t feel anymore, my heart is numb. Both sides colliding, fighting each other and I’m somewhere in the middle wanting to move past it.

I’m targeted on all fronts: Loneliness, lost, anxiety, & insecurity. This battle is intense

Why does it hurt to see you with someone else? I already know im too good for you, but do you really feel for someone else? Maybe I should’ve told u how I really felt. I wonder if u still would’ve made the same decision. U have an addiction to love, you chase the feeling to be wanted. You love with no bounds and give it ur all, to each girl. Ur a serial lover. I now see this is a pattern. I just want to hear you be honest. Don’t hide nothing from me.

I can read you and feel you. I just want you to show me the real you. Be comfortable in ur own skin, I want to be ur safe space. Let me heal you