Unconditional Pain.

This hurts, the temptation of your lips so close to my body but still not being able to grab you. Those eyes that show me the other sides pain and pleasure, that smile that has me losing breath in my sleep. Why does this pull feel so strong when I know I can’t have you. Why. You control me. My emotion my action, what I think it’s all you, you own me. As I fall apart and break I find pieces of happiness around you. So I’ll pick them up till she tells me to leave. Lucid dreams nothing compared to the dream of you and I. I wish but I can’t. this sickness overwhelms my body the hesitance will disappear and I will do it. And everything will truly fall apart. With no pieces to pick up only shards to cut me while I try and put myself together, a inevitable end to everything. Though I walk eyes open into this storm. What am I doing. forever in love with pain. For pain is home and home is safe and safe is real. Real is hope and hope is survival. So be my pain. won’t you? be the butterflies in my stomach then the knife That concurs my body with lies then show me your battle scares and we’ll compare ours as we do. till you add another six to my body and leave with with no scared for I healed them all. Show me your worst and I’ll be your best. Be my……. Do your worst.