My little big Sadness

In disbelief

I tried to rearrange

All these tiny pieces

Of my life

Crumbling before my eyes

In shock I tried to stop

Such events

From robbing me

In vain effort

Who's there to blame

When everything falls apart

Your mother cries in the kitchen

Bent like that one pant

Who didn't get much water

It changes you

Something breaks

Like a string of a violin

Too old to sing again

It snaps.

Is a flower still a flower

After the soil dies

And becomes poison?

This infinite huge circle of life

Unimaginably infinite

And yet

Everything is so useless

And tiny

And yet you are caught in it

For a such a small stupid little thing

You loose you

So you are stuck

In a purgatory of emotions

And non emotions

You are here

But you are not really here

You are so far

But how could they notice

You're so good at hiding.

When the last leaf

Falls off from

The hopeful tree

The switch snaps

Everyone left

This dying lonely tree

Approaches the winter

Salvage carnage of souls

What you thought

What you believed

Bent and twisted

Drenched in disbelief

Sorrow and anger

All those leafs

Left

But to eventually

Fall on the ground

Dirty and tainted

Still

On the ground

Hoping for

That false

Sense of community

One onto the other

Dirty in group

Is better then alone

Thriving in dirt

Let the tree know

Let the tree see

Summer will come again

And time

Will make it light

The tree shall not

Ever think about

The fallen leaves

No more.

Un attimo

È passato solo un attimo

Da quando ti guardavo

Vi guardavo

E vedevo quel riflesso felice

Stampato nella mia testa

Un infantile ricordo

Di quello

Che oggi è sordo

Muto

E cieco

Un attimo ed è tutto finito

Ribaltato

Svuotato

Un attimo e famiglia

D'un tratto

Non è più un termine

Poi così adatto

Distratto

il mio sguardo ho girato

Il tempo naufraga via

Una fallace

Orribile

Perversa clessidra

Prestato di nuovo

La mia attenzione

Ho scoperto la desolazione

Sgretolarsi di ideali utopici

Prima fanatici

Lei piange in cucina

Oggi questa è la nuova dottrina

La schiena curva sulle faccende

La mente nei ricordi, assente

E simultaneamente esente

Da un tocco d'essere puro

Niente com'era prima

Ancora un attimo

Una piccolo inutile insignificante

Inesistente demoralizzante attimo.

Il primo fiore, perso in un oscura

Macchinazione.

Il secondo fiore, perso nelle fratture del tempo più antico

La vecchia quercia, spoglia e stanca

Riposa nel freddo inverno

Il terreno asciutto

Cerca vita più in là

Il terzo fiore, muore

Soggiogato dall'oscurità

Pugnalato dalla verità

Schifato dalla vergogna

Nero pece e cancro

Divora via la pace

L'unità e la primavera

E così. In quell'attimo

Quel giardino in cui vivevo

Ho perso.

And in all honesty, always they told me to live

Participate more, be present and be thankful.

And never have i found it a painless task

Always to be attracted

By apparently bad things

Lazy, unmotivated, distant, sad.

That was my truth

That was my home

And never i found myself regretful

Of choosing me.

Always better then this fake superficial mask

You all put on to play this

Horrific useless game with each other

This twisted dance you call "life"

But one truth i miss

Never to escape from my mind

This heavy thoughts never found the ocean

Like rivers always rumbling

Overflowing

Everlasting without hope of release

They say that life is bliss

Is it?

All the truths, and realizations

I have been subject to

Made me alien to this bliss

Made me an outsider in my own home

Distant enough to witness it

But also never able to touch it

Everything everywhere

It's all unbelievably insignificant

The problems we make

And the words we say

I once, prayed for the truth

Searched it, in every corner

Of my life.

But upon stumbling on it

I found myself cursed

Forever longing for something more.

More meaningful

More deep

They say life is miracle

But then why i find myself

So incredibly incapable

Of standing in it

What if I'm here

Left to wander

And wonder

What is this all about

Inquiring malevolent energies

Room around your head

Captive of such thoughts

You don't catch

That my place here

Is your place here

Seasons ringing the bell

Of decay

So you just delay

The promise of a big life

Loving embraces

Scattering the embers

Of a real life

Leaving this cage

Only to engage

The truth.

Clear

Cristal sea

Cristal clear sea

Mesmerizing colors reflections

Blind you shall not see

What i believed you to be

Dear rose now burning

Won't you stop hurting

The sea retired

Left only bloody

Black Tainted glass

On dead dry ground

Here to stand now

But the shark's gone

You could rest some

This hurt unbearable

Make go away

Forgive your blind eyes

And their fellow rhymes

Tuning with lies

Forget the touch

Venomous rust

Painful as such

Stains on one perfect crest

Fated to grow

Forever away

From all the rest.

Once upon a time

I saw that spark

Two pair of eyes

Made for each other

Stared into one another

It was mesmerizing

And i thought

"I want that"

Then time passes

I was just a child

Mirroring in mine

Was a perfect world

Made of love and colors

Wonderfully painted

By beautful hands

The child grows

And that spark

Saw no more

Shadows growing bigger instead

In its place

Fearful demises of love

Gasping for hair

Suffocating by the lack

The lack of life

Lack of space

Lack of grace

That child now grown

Strive so hard

To find and look

Even just witness those sparks

Lack of everything thats fair

That child now

Sadly watches those same

Two pair of eyes

Now avoiding each other

As to be ashamed of something

That's not there anymore

That child hurts

And cries at night

When no one can hear

Wishing they were near

While they grow everyday apart

That child's gotta lot to learn

From love that doesn't last

From shadows that lures inside

The hearts of whom he loves

But then again

Once upon a time

Those two pair of eyes

Had such a bright spark

So he cries again at night

Wondering why

His mom and dad

Cannot love each other back

Igniting that spark again

Which made everything

So wonderfully colored.

Darkness

Is it so bad

Is it vain

To wish for it

Maybe insane

Feels like

There's a whole world

To blame

Darkness is home

Nothing touches you

Nobody looks at you

Nobody listens

Or speaks

Complete nothingness

Eats away the shame

That's me

That's my home

Far away from here

At the begging of things

Of life even

There's darkness

That warm dark place

That fills my soul

Is nowhere to be found

In this light shine bright

Reality

We keep on fooling

Each other that this

Is the saving light

Saints angel

God and what is good

Blight.

Che coraggio

Dici dai solo un assaggio

Di vita

Sapore di mare

Sapere amare

Non sempre viene veloce

C'è sempre quella voce

Che grida nel silenzio

Attento!

Non strafare

Non far vedere

Tieni chiuso il cuore

Lo sai come va a finire

Tra il non dire

Tra il nascondersi

Ed esprimersi con mezze parole

E di nuovo c'è il mare

Le nuvole e il vento

La primavera del cuore

Quel caldo abbraccio la mattina

Che ti sveglia l'anima

Dal lungo letargo ti desti

O spirito errante

Sei sempre tu

Solo tu a quanto pare

A cercare qualcosa di vero

Qualcosa di importante.

I've said it

And I'll say it again

In this lone path we walk

We talk

We laugh

We love

But in the end

These are just moments

Reflections of instants

Tomorrow it'll be gone

Like you

Recalling the forces

The powers at play

Keep me naked

In display

It's beautiful and so scaring

How do you keep

Yourself

And thus your life

Without even caring

I was thinking

Just reminiscing

What we shared

And everything we were

Maybe nothing

Just breathing

simple as drinking

That one glass

Nothing too deep

But for me it is

always like this

I notice those little things

That hide love

I collect them

Like precious stones

But for them

They're just bones

Bury them underground

Where they will not be found

It's always like this

I think to much

Of these stupid little things

Made my ears rings

Made my heart skip

Made my mind trip

Made me fall apart

And made me fall for you

These stupid little things

That made me love you

Che ti prende?

Cosa fa di te ciò che sei

Cosa ti rende felice

ed espresso

Non sai cos'è successo

C'è che non ti senti te stesso

Senti quel vuoto dentro

Quello che non hai detto

E forse non dirai mai

C'è troppa nebbia

Forse arriverai

Ma quelle aspettative

Quegli affetti

Poi dove li metti?

Insieme di difetti

Il vuoto che non si colma

Non si riempie,

Sai cosa ti serve

La vita ti sorprende

Ti prende

Ti rende inerme

Tutto questo gran da fare

E alla fine

Non troviamo più

Neanche il tempo per amare

Amare seriamente

Vedere i lati oscuri

abbracciarli ugualmente

Quell'amore c'è

Così forte che

Anche quel vuoto riempirebbe

Eppure alla fine del giorno

Quando tutto svanisce dal contorno

E il mondo rimane taciturno

Il tuo cuore prende il turno

Vaga da solo dove vuole stare

Verso strade incoerenti

Che solo lui vuole fare

Non ti resta che silenziare

Tutto quel rumore

Tutto quell'amore

Per stare in pace con te stesso

E forse dormire

O solo

Riposare.

I was just a litlle grain of sand in your life

Blown by the wind

Carried by the sea

Arrived to you

Like a flower in spring

But the problem is you see

I'm the very ocean in mine

Big tides and waves

Destroy and eat up what crossses the line

My wave was just to big

Too high

For you not to flee

For you not to stray away

Stay away

And in the end

As always

You ran away.

As the time goes by i recognize

As the leaves fall i see you agonize

Dealing with the emotions..

For so long you kept in

Now i don't mean to antagonize

The reality you created

I'm just noticing

I'm healing, I'm feeling real again

You spoke and i beared

I dodged and you shot

I bled and you laughed

And when you'll uncover

Or ever discover truth

I'll say good for you

But don't expect me

cheering with you

That bottle of wine

Frozen in time

"for really special event it says"

But there she stays

For me and you got nothing

To celebrate.