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“My mind was created by the devil himself, and my heart shares the same mold.”
“You want to see people as extremes. Bad or good, trustworthy or not. I understand. It’s easier that way. But that isn’t how people work.”

Veronica Roth, Carve the Mark

“Just because someone hurts you doesn’t mean you can simply stop loving them. It’s not a person’s actions that hurt the most. It’s the love. If there was no love attached to the action, the pain would be a little easier to bear.”

Colleen Hoover, It Ends with Us

This isn’t like it was before;

That nighttime which I would not allow to turn into day.

I wake and amble amongst the living with blackened veins imbedded under pinkish skin.

She stayed in bed, now I enthusiastically avoid it -

but I can’t avoid her.

Can’t avoid the swelling sensation of me in colourless shades tearing all of these layers away.

Outgrowing myself and the need to remain hidden, and docile, and exceedingly empty.

This version of me is violently dissatisfied.

“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all.”

Anne Sexton

“And I’m trying to learn brave doesn’t always mean building walls and burning people with fire as protection. I’m trying to learn the kind of brave you taught me - pulling down the gates, letting go of control…”

Sade Andria Zabala, You Make Me Feel Human

“So I drank one, it became four, and when I fell on the floor I drank more. Nothing has changed, I still love you, I still love you.”

Morrissey