i am a vegetable medley and god is sautéing me on medium high heat 

i’m craving human contact this is v bad i just want someone to touch me wtf (not really sexually more like sensually idk but i’d take platonically too i guess) idk

The tags sjsmxk I have never related to anything greater

the loved. the unloved.

You know you are beyond inconsolable when you read fluffy Yuri on Ice fanfiction and cry because Ash and Eiji will never have that.

I liked and unliked this so many times This is painful but true

A little 2019 motivation my dudes

Im gonna keep this short

This semester, the start of 2019, its all about just doing it.

Whatever you’ve been thinking or questioning, stop. Just do it

Ask her/him out.

Start that damn project and get it off your to do list TODAY!

This is your moment!

Dont hold back.

You can succeed if you never give up the thought and ambitions. You have to reach for it, grab life by the lemons and make that lemonade.

Dont think no

Stop thinking you cant

You can make extra money

It might not happen overnight. But it can and will happen.

A lot of people give up too early!

Think of how far you/they could have gotten if you/they kept going for a year non stop!

Its 2019!

Our year to make it

To just stop thinking of the complicated steps and realize you had it in you all along.

All those minor details that are keeping you from accomplishing your goal: they are not as big and scary as you think

Break it down

This is your life!

In 2019, fight to make it your best life

Fuck thank-you

(∂ + m) ψ = 0

It is a new thing of them.

Ash would leave a note on the fridge so Eiji could read it when he leaves. It all started because Eiji got so worried whenever Ash goes outside and the green-eyed boy thought it´s normal as his and Eiji´s heart are still filled with a lot of scars and bad memories to heal. But Ash has never stand the idea of Eiji feeling fear, so he decided he would leave him a note so Eiji always know where he is.

At the very beginning they were the typical messages you leave in a hurry: “I´ll be back in 5, don´t worry” or “Out with Sing, we have to check on something” but recently, Ash would leave him a message which makes Eiji smile or blush depending on the content of said note. Eiji still remembers the first time he saw a note which content were just 4 characters: I <3 U. That was enough to make him smile all day long.

But todays note is different and Eiji has been in front of the fridge for more than twenty minutes in a row. The characters written on the note are strange: (∂ + m) ψ = 0.

Eiji knows they´re kind of a mathematical equation. Eiji guesses Ash has no problem understanding those characters but Eiji feels confused and useless until he remembers there´s something called Internet and that you can use it to find whatever you want in there. Taking the note with him, Eiji walks towards the computer and he feels his heart pounding at the sight of another note that says: “you´re not going to do this the easy way, big brother. Go to the public library, I´ll see you there”.

Eiji smiles. Ash has planned all that treasure hunt for him and it´s kind of warm, romantic, crazy and beautiful. Because he knows Ash wants to share his whole world with him, even when such world is full of things Eiji doesn´t understand at first. There´s no problem in knowing Ash is far more intelligent than him, because that means Ash is going to teach him something new every day the same way he has taught him how it is to be deeply loved.

The Japanese boy smiles and without waiting more he runs towards the place Ash has asked him to go and when he arrives there, he´s not surprised to see Ash sitting in front of his usual desk. He´s of course, surrounded by books and he looks so peaceful and happy that at first Eiji doesn´t want to interrupt him. Ash is so beautiful, so intelligent, so perfect. In moments like that Eiji wonders seriously what Ash has seen in him that´s worth being by his side.

Eiji walks slowly and he puts his right hand on Ash shoulder and he´s not shocked to see Ash is not surprised nor afraid with the contact. Eiji could tell Ash has noticed his presence the same very moment he get in the room.

“You arrived early”, says Ash and his green eyes look at Eiji and the boy smiles immediately. “You look so handsome after having a little jogging, big brother”.

“Stop it”, says Eiji with a big bright smile that makes Ash confirm his late statement: Eiji is damn handsome all the time.

“OK, but it doesn´t makes you less handsome.”

“Stop flirting and explain me, professor Callenreese.” Says Eiji and he sits next to Ash, as he puts his note on the book Ash has been reading.

“Well, I´m glad you attend today´s lesson” says Ash and a soft smile appears on his lips. “You see, I found this days ago. I just wanted to tell you right away but the house is sometimes full of people and truth be told, I felt a little bit ashamed of myself for having this kind of cheesy thoughts and…”

“What´s the matter, Ash?” asks Eiji again and Ash´s green eyes become deeper, full of emotion and Eiji starts feeling a little nervous.

“This is a physics equation, the Dirac equation.” Says Ash and Eiji notices the boy cheeks are blushed. “The real meaning of the formula is more complex than what I´m going to say but long story short, it says that if two systems interact with each other for a certain period of time and then, are separated, they can no longer be described as two separated systems, but somehow, they become a single system. In other words what happens to one of them continues to influence each other even if distant miles or light years are between them.”

“Two systems…” says Eiji and suddenly the words Ash has said make his heart melt. “So, they are never going to be separated, they are connected soul to soul.”

“Exactly…” says Ash and he takes Eiji´s hand in his and leaves a soft kiss on Eiji´s fingers. “That´s what you and me will be, you see? Nobody will never tear us apart. We are one, Eiji Okumura, we´ll always be one.”

Eiji smiles and he kisses Ash on the lips. It doesn´t matter they are in a public library, Ash is friends with the librarian so the Japanese boy is sure he´s not going to get mad. After all, they are just a couple of boys kissing softly. They are two boys who are feeling their bond of love growing stronger inside of them. They are two boys who are madly in love and whose love is one of those attachments that the universe will never destroy and physics support that thesis…

NOTE:  I don´t know anything about physics. I just found a publication which says this was the most beautiiful equation in the world because it can be used to explain love too and well, I couldn´t help but writing this. I hope you enjoyed it :3

Thank-you for restoring my soul

sad banana.

happy banana.

Cut-e

som fullview stuff from my zine….it healed me to draw these back then so i hope u guys will enjoy ;u;

God I'm crying

som fullview stuff from my zine….it healed me to draw these back then so i hope u guys will enjoy ;u;

God I'm crying

finale.

Yes.

Thank-you for this

just think: the world is billions of years old and you were born at just the right time to suffer through banana fish :)

Fuck you

Sjdndkck

一緒に

Bless

These fucking memes are only funny when they make dark jokes but it somehow helps cope with the pain and angst the show has left us

[slides 50$ at MAPPA] yeah uuh can you cancel the rest of the show and get me a 70-hour sitcom about ash and eiji’s married life shenanigans?

Completely self indulgent today.

I always think about this and how defenseless and absolutely trusting Ash is with Eiji Like that scene where the quiet Yut-Lung was noticed by Ash but when Eiji approached Ash from behind Yut-Lung really flinched.

I-zu-mo 

gizumo?

happiness is delivered with a consequence 

I want to reblog only fluff material but I loved this line