fun fact: i also exist when ur not bored, lonely or horny

I. December, 2014.

My skinny rules

1: Always leave food in the plate 2: Drink a sip of water per each bite 3: Eat as slow as possible 4: NEVER eat alone 5: No bread/sweets 6: Weight myself everyday 7: Drink at least 2L of water 8: Only drink coffee, tea and water 9: Don’t eat processed food

-My Don’t-Binge List-

1. To be delicate, dainty, fragile. 2. To proudly tell people your clothing size 3. To have thighs that look small in anything 4. To wear a bathing suit in public  5. So you won’t have to compare yourself to others 6. To look good in everything 7. To have people ask you for diet tips 8. To have people say you look like a model 9.  For the doubletake 10. To look good in every photo 11. To enjoy going out in public 12. To wear thigh-high socks that fall down 13. Being able to sit on his lap/be picked up 14. Having small thighs when sitting 15. To feel confident in intimate situations 16. To build a stylish wardrobe 17. For the thigh tattoos 18. To focus on something else other than your weight 19. To look skinny in skinny jeans 20. Looking small in baggy clothes 21. To have visible collarbones 22. To have a thigh gap 23. To be the health-nut fit-girl 24. So doing your makeup and hair doesn’t feel like a waste 25. To become someone else’s thinspo 26. So you aren’t wasting your youth 27. For the oversized sweaters and good books on rainy days 28. To be called “tiny” by him. 29. To finally accomplish your ultimate goal weight 30. To comfortably play video games and watch netflix in your underwear 31. To prove them wrong and make them jealous               I’ll add more as they come to me.

I want to be thin enough that I can use my own pics as thinspo❤️

Reblog if you think you need to lose weight

I know I do

Reminder to myself:

You’ll get skinny.

You’ll reach your gw.

You’ll be happy.

You won’t bing.

You’ll workout.

You CAN do it!

Thigh Gap Workout

1. 10 Toe Touches (Standing) 2. 20 Lunges (10 Each Leg) 3. 30 Sumo Squats 4. 40 Jumping Jacks 5. 50 Second Toe Touching (Sitting) 6. 60 Second Wall Sit

Repeat 5+ Times a Week

I won't stop until everyone I know tells me that I'm too skinny and need to gain weight.

Reblog if you honestly think you're fat. Not just the ocasional "Ugh, I feel fat in this" or "I look fat today", but when you feel fat 24/7 and you hate yourself because of it to the point where you would do anything to be skinny.

Usually when i feel like I’m going to binge i do a few things to stop myself

1. I think about all the cute clothes i can wear when i do drop the weight

2. I spin around a few times to make myself feel a little nauseous so i don’t feel hungry

3. I make myself a cup of coffee or tea

4. I keep a bottle of water on me at all times

5. If i feel like I’m going to binge i eat a small apple or half of a regular one

6. I’d tell myself I’d eat later

7. Convince myself that theres nothing I want to eat in the kitchen anyway

8. That hey when I’m skinny I’ll have a boyfriend or girlfriend that’ll love me.

9. Being able to wear knee socks and they’ll actually look good.

10. If i do feel like I’m going to binge I remind myself about how fat i am and it i do binge I’m just going to gain more weight and have to start again.

Never eat alone. This way someone always sees you eat when you do and cant say “Oh she never eats” Cravings = count to 100 and get away.

How do you want to feel this summer? Jealous, or skinny?

Shortly before I binge, I always tell myself: there are more important things in life than being skinny. What’s important to me in life? He is important to me. But I don’t want to feel fat standing next to him. Fashion is important to me. But all the pretty clothes only look good on skinny girls. Of course my friends are important to me. But I’m so ugly and fat compared to them.

My point is yes there are more important things in life. But being fat ruins them.

im going to do this. and post progress and meet my goal weight