And again, love wasn't enough. Yours wasn't enough 3 years ago. Yours wasn't enough 2 years ago. Mine wasn't enough our entire time together.
Now, mine is not enough. Enough for you to stay.
Now, yours is not enough. Enough for me to fight.
Oh, we're both so tired. Tired of fighting, waiting, contemplating. Of dreaming and hoping, and grief and pain. Of trauma and healing. Of doubts and projections.
Oh, we're both so done. But how do we exit the cycle?
“Someone somewhere is searching for you in every person they meet.”
— Unknown
You know whats important to me in a relationship (both romantic and platonic) ?
Sitting in traffic. Waiting in line. Missing a flight. Running late for work. Searching for lost keys. Forgetting your wallet at home and having to circle back. Y’know when your hair gets caught in your necklace/earring for like 10 minutes and it’s not funny anymore cuz they were a gift and you’ll be really sad to break it plus it’s yanking your hair out? That too. When you’re ill does the other person comfort you and ease your pain?Grocery shopping. Bringing home the groceries and the dog is jumping on you and the cats are running in between your legs and you’re hangry. Being hangry. That’s important to me. But whats crucial is how all that gets handled. If one of us loses our cool will the other deescalate the issue or make it worse? Can we both lose our cool without blaming eachother for every little thing? How long does it take us to makeup and apologize for our hangry exchange of words? After an apology do we both feel understood, cherished and connected?
How do I handle those feelings? How do I battle this fight? How do I not loose against the meaningless-ness of life? When every day feels just heavy then what’s the point in finding light?
My problem is I never healed I just kept going
“Loyalty isn’t grey. It’s black and white. You’re either loyal completely, or not loyal at all. And people have to understand this. You can’t be loyal only when it serves you.”
— Sharnay (via liebeficktunsalle)
“We try so hard to hide everything we’re really feeling from those who probably need to know our true feelings the most.”
— Colleen Hoover, Maybe Someday
“Pretending not to love you is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.”
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“No relationship is perfect so just find the right one to go through hell and heaven with.”
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“There will always be struggle. You just have to pick who you wanna struggle with.”
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this was one of the most beautiful skies i’ve seen all year
“Maybe someday we will be two people meeting again for the first time.”
— Unknown
