welcome to my blog !!
☆i'm will
☆20 years old (2003)
☆ftm, started t on nov. 7th, 2022
☆5'8"
this is an ed blog btw!! if you don't wanna see that, pls pls pls dni and block me if you want to. despite this being an ed blog, i am NOT pro-@na and always support recovery. i'm also a plus-sized person, so if that bothers you do not interact.
very much looking for other mid/plus-sized people to talk to, or just other similarly-aged people to be friends with!!
!!! STATS !!!
not going to lie gang i was on the verge of deleting this acc and trying to do better but this man that i like told me he’s 185 and i feel like i need to not be 40lbs heavier than him cuz i think thats so embarrassing for me😮💨
do y'all eat something right after your fast ends or like let it marinate and get a few extra fasting hours in there off the clock? cuz i'm gonna be done with my first successful 48hr fast in a few hours and i'm wondering whether i should eat something or wait until tomorrow morning since it ends at like 10:30pm
does anyone have tips for like... making cottage cheese taste better? i feel like having that in my safe foods rotation would be so clutch but i am afraid to try it bc i've heard so many ppl say it tastes like booty...
i’m almost at the 24hr mark of this fast (the longest i’ve successfully gone in a LONG time) and i feel like i’m being haunted by visions of food😖 i need to power thru, but i might let myself have some miso soup or something else super low cal and savory
did i b1nge this weekend? yes!
did i decide to immediately start a 48hr fast after? yes!!
i'm 19hrs in and 2.1 lbs down :3
realized yesterday that pickles (my biggest low cal safe food) are just like… sickening to me now, esp when i eat them by themselves… what am i supposed to have now😭
finally done with eating like a pig antibiotics!! ready to st@rve again😈
had to submit some old medical records for health insurance stuff and i saw my weight from high school… and i’m actually so close to being back to where i was 5 years ago… when i was fifteen…. i’m obsessed i’m lower now than i have been since fall of 2021 :3
ok pookies i am coming on here to ask for advice bc there is this party on friday and i want to wear this cute tee shirt but there are... recent unfortunate markings on my forearm that, yk, would be bad to have showing at a party. does anyone have tips for how to hide them discreetly?? ideally without putting a long sleeve on under this shirt bc it fits so perfectly and i don't wanna mess with how it looks
yall crisis averted i actually got a BETTER shirt that looks v nice with a long sleeve undershirt bless up
ok pookies i am coming on here to ask for advice bc there is this party on friday and i want to wear this cute tee shirt but there are... recent unfortunate markings on my forearm that, yk, would be bad to have showing at a party. does anyone have tips for how to hide them discreetly?? ideally without putting a long sleeve on under this shirt bc it fits so perfectly and i don't wanna mess with how it looks
i am having! generally the worst time! totally fucked up recent progress bc i had to start on antibiotics since my cold was apparently worse than i thought it was and in my mind "take every pill with food" means eat whatever you want and turn back into a pig! i am so frustrated with so many things rn and just everything fucking sucks and i want to crawl into a hole and die can't even talk to anyone irl about it because the last thing on earth i want to be is a bother so i just have to crawl into a hole and die silently so that i don't inconvenience anyone and they don't worry when in reality i just want to scream until my vocal cords rip apart
just got a craving for a super specific food and honestly just the fear of seeing the number on the scale go up is making the craving go away. am i back in my honeymoon phase? i hope so
i am back to where i was pre-b1nge and i think i am through my cold!! had to overnight some medicine bc it got bad but i also got a 12-pack of sparkling ice and some low-cal chocolate crackers to curb cravings (3 crackers for 35cal) so we are SO back
currently attempting a 48hr f@st to get back on track after being sick, i do also have 2 midterms during this 48hr period so let's see how it goes (i am nervous)
definitely have had a binge-y past 24hrs.... i just felt actually so sick from this cold and my body felt so weak that i needed to eat something (and then it ended up being way more food than i should have eaten) trying to actually hold myself accountable by posting on here even when i fuck up instead of going radio silence which is what i've done in the past
the ed is really eding today bc i just looked up how many cals there are in dayquil (there are 93cals in 2tbsp)
is there like an order in which parts of your body lose weight? cuz my hands are like the skinniest i've ever seen them (i can see all my bones and tendons moving under my skin, my knuckles are super bony etc.) and the tops of my shoulders/collarbones are super pronounced but i still have big hips/waist, thighs, and upper arms. like... what is going on and when will my torso/legs get skinny > <
