I'mma be 💯 with y'all when I say I was way too high just now discovering that Tumblr has achievements now
And no I don't have any idea where my stylus is right now and I am completely couchlocked and if I reach over too far I WILL flip over

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I'mma be 💯 with y'all when I say I was way too high just now discovering that Tumblr has achievements now
And no I don't have any idea where my stylus is right now and I am completely couchlocked and if I reach over too far I WILL flip over
Fuckin DO NOT USE THIS THING
You think this hellsite is a nightmare?
You ain't seen SHIT
Fuckin fuck me a bill came out when I didn't have the money for it and now I'm overdrafted ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
Even ten bucks would help so I don't wake up to a -40 balance
isn’t it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators…
schizophrenic person: makes a post trying to raise awareness about the disproportionate abuse and harmful stereotypes schizophrenic people face
yall: “yeah im not gonna reblog this they used the word ins*ne which is so problematic ://”
What the fuck happens that changes these stats to such a massive degree?
1) schizophrenia hardly ever causes people to be violent so schizophrenic people aren’t more likely to be violent than anyone else
2) schizophrenic people’s autonomy is often taken away from them because of their schizophrenia. because the authorities and mental healthcare providers often automatically assume schizophrenic people to be violent, they’re more likely to immediately react to schizophrenic people’s symptoms with violence, without even knowing for sure said schizophrenic person was going to be violent. all of this causes schizophrenic people to be more likely of being victims of violence and abuse. schizophrenic people also have a harder time getting out of abusive households because of the risk of their autonomy being taken away. if a schizophrenic person’s relative or partner is abusive, often the schizophrenic person has no way out of the situation, both because our disconnect from reality can result in us being easier to manipulate, and because the system is built in a way that it takes away our autonomy because of our condition.
also schizophrenic people and psychotic people in general, please do a lot of research before picking a provider for your own sake, and if they try to treat your psychosis in a way that you think is harmful then don’t hesitate to switch providers. your safety and wellbeing should be a priority over everything else.
can y'all please reblog this version instead
Guys, if you read on AO3 please try to create an account. So many of us writers are going to be forced to lock down our fics to registered users out of necessity to help keep AI away, and it kills us because we don’t want to stop any of you from reading.
AO3 is invite only. So if you know an AO3 user, ask if they have an invitation to give you (we’re given invite codes to share with others who want to join) because that’s an easy way to get in. If you don’t know someone you can ask, this is AO3’s instructions for requesting one from them…
I know this seems like an extra step and maybe you don’t think you need it and can just read from people who haven’t locked their fics. But this isn’t just about you as the reader. If you enjoy fics and you want to keep them coming, this is how you support your favorite writers! If our stats and comments plummet, I guarantee writing is going to start going down as well. Nobody wants that! So please consider making an account and signal boosting this as well! 🙏🏻
**NOTE: AO3 indicates (as of today) there’s 48k some people in the queue for invites and they’re sending out about 5k per day. That’s not a bad wait at all!!**
How many times have I asked her not to use the screamy beeps on call with me my poor head and brain
That's it I'm just giving her links to my condition
Now I'm freaking out because the 4th of July is coming and if I can't handle a microwave beep I'm in trouble
How many times have I asked her not to use the screamy beeps on call with me my poor head and brain
That's it I'm just giving her links to my condition
Anyways Juneteenth is coming up
If you want to do something for a Black person but don't know where to start, I got an infected tooth and anything that'll help me get pain management until the 11th of July will help
$CyggieStardust1 (Cash app)
Anyways I just had two bills auto decline because insufficient funds🙃
HAHAHA WHAT THE FUCK THEY DELETED MY POSTS
Y'ALL AIN'T SLICK
Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.
Might I add:
The defeat of the wizard who made people choose how they’d be to be executed
The woman who raised the changeling alongside her biological child
The human who died of radiation poisoning after repairing the spaceship
The adventures of a space roomba
Cinderella finding Araura (and falling in love)
I don’t know a snappy description but the my nemesis cynthia story certainly lives in my head
hilariously, these are almost all in my fic tag. so, a compiled list from the notes (and some extras):
I am in love with you /p
adding the Doctors Without Borders one
I LOVE tumblr storytime, so here’s a bunch more your weekend reading. Enjoy!
26. Haunted house
33. Narrative Town
35. Robot Apocalypse
37. Kushiel
38. Tooth Fairy
39. Alien abduction
42. Space cousins
WAIT REBLOG THIS VERSION INSTEAD
i hope this doesn’t need to be said but just in case
you might have seen people talking about sudowrite and/or their tool storyengine recently
and just like… don’t. don’t do it. don’t try it out just to see what it’s about.
for two main reasons:
1) never feed anything proprietary into a large language model (LLM, eg ChatGPT, google bard, etc.).
this means don’t give it private company information when you’re at work, but also don’t give it your original writing. that’s your work.
because of the way these language models work, anything you feed into it is part of it now. and yeah, the FAQ says they “don’t claim ownership” over anything and yeah, they give you that reassuring bullshit about how unlikely it is that the exact same sentence will be reconstructed—
but that’s not the point.
do you have an unusual way of constructing sentences? a metaphor you like to use? a writing tic that sets you apart from the rest? anything that gives you a unique writing voice?
feed your writing into an LLM, and the model has your voice now. the model can generate text that sounds like it was written by you and someone else can claim it’s theirs because they gave the model a prompt.
don’t feed the model.
2) the other reason is that sudowrite scraped a bunch of omegaverse fic without consent to build their model and that’s a really shitty thing to do, because it means people weren’t given the chance to choose whether or not to feed the model.
don’t feed the model.
also this.
don’t feed the model.
Anyways Juneteenth is coming up
If you want to do something for a Black person but don't know where to start, I got an infected tooth and anything that'll help me get pain management until the 11th of July will help
$CyggieStardust1 (Cash app)
Oh
Fuckin
Boy
Can we NOT insist that ONLY THE CIS can be straight out gay or lesbian?
It's 20blackass23 and there's seriously lesbians still around who will tell trans women that they're not allowed to use the term lesbian
If you agree that trans women are women, then trans women are allowed to call themselves/be lesbians.
If you don't let A=true, then you're REALLY saying you don't think trans women are women enough to be lesbians
And that is some grade A disgusting shit!
You cannot say trans women are women and then say "oh but You're not allowed to use this term even though half of the definition basically includes the only real directions for its use:
✨ Be a woman ✨
It's fuckin Pride Month and the cis are fighting us on this JKR-ass shit
You know what I'm going to bed
Y'all I'm taking screens of the shit in real time but I'm pretty sure I'm about to lose an old friend... But it might not be much of a loss.
"Dude sucking at something is the first step to being sorta good at something." --Jake the Dog, Adventure Time
With that in note, I'm buckling down and doing my sketch a day for the day. Today's prompt is "Miss." I shose to render this with a busted arrow that TECHNICALLY did its job, but isnt going to work now.
Overdoing this is the first step to burnout. Burnout is the first step to getting actually hurt. and when you get hurt, you can't operate at full strength--kinda like a broken arrow.
...might actually show this to my therapist. Now that i'm not in the trenches of creation, this hits hard.
I'm probably going scarce for a bit.
Last night there was an incident. I called 988. There were cops. Lots of them.
I was triggered. Not into flight mode but fight mode. Rage. Frustration. A lot of primal screaming. A lot of people saw a hideous side of me yesterday.
My husband saw it.
To TLDR for you: this happened because of a wellness check gone wrong. There were supposed to be an officer and 2 medics. What was showed up was either 4 or 5 feral hogs cops and a single completely unsympathetic medic. And I am Black, trans, disabled, queer, and mentally ill.
I don't think I have to tell you this went reprehensibly.
I don't think — no, I know neither of us is ok right now.
I want to wake up Elsewhere.
Please do not call my phone, I will not answer. The sound of the human voice is a nightmare right now. Do not text, I cannot formulate sentences in conversational form. I barely wish to even be perceived. I have opened up here so you know why I disappeared as suddenly as I reappeared, to let you know I'm not about to do something stupid and permanent.
It has been 0 days since my last self harming incident. In the crisis I resorted to slashing my left leg up, to avoid inflicting violence on something else. I've done it before. It worked before. It worked again. It's not a habit I want to get back.
I just...why is humanity
Also, ACAB.
