and again I was wrong, it was not love. i was played again , over and over and over it will never stop. Maybe I am the problem. I miss you, I feel so stupid because it’s always the same cycle but with different faces and my eyes are drifting
Castle seen from forest by Mark Ferrari.
How beautiful. I cant wait to do more scenery when i go home
anexchange / gouache painting on paper
and I’m not sure if this is love, so I’ll keep hoping for it until I can’t anymore. I’m putting my trust and faith once more to the test.
carrionwatchers / gouache painting on paper
hugggggg / gouache painting on paper
maybe I’m the problem. lol. No one will ever love me.
half of adulting is basically you trying not to cry
The other half is crying
Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Eat”
[Text ID: “I am trying to stop doing / things that don’t make any sense. Body, / forgive me. I am trying. I am trying. I am still trying.]
from Autopsy by Donte Collins
maybe I am crazy. I don’t wanna be alive anymore lol . This life sucks ass so much and I’ve done so much that I wish I hadn’t. I regret everything. And now my??? Boyfriend??? I guess ??? Lol he’s acting weird and we JUST GOT TOGETHER
on the self
mary oliver a thousand mornings \\ marc chagall blue lovers (1914) \\ jean-paul sartre nausea
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
[text ID: And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.]
I wish you would just come back. i really need to hear your voice again.
Catherine Gildiner, Good Morning, Monster: Five Heroic Journeys to Emotional Recovery
poetry-siir
I’m stuck I haven’t moved an inch i don’t understand why . I don’t understand this.
Les petites filles modèles, 1971
the birds
constantly feeling like I’m just a stupid idiot and that people really don’t care about me. that I make everyone so angry and frustrated because I don’t listen, when I do. maybe all along it was just me, maybe that’s why you left, maybe that’s why everyone leaves. I’m really trying to better myself and have a better life but an aching feeling in my gut is telling me otherwise. i just want to be happy. i want to make other people feel happy. i just want to be okay, but everyone just hates me. including myself. Maybe I shouldn’t be here. I’m just too scared to leave.
‘Black Cat Sentry’ by Dillon Samuelson
‘Opawlia’ by Susan Herbert (1945 - 2004)
Photo by Azad Balabanian
JOE KEERY as Steve Harrington in Stranger Things, Season 4
"I woke up. The moon is full, so I send my wishes to the universe", 2021
Sung Hwa Kim
seeing beyond my heart, I now realize what kind of person you are , and who you took me for. sorry to disappoint. I’m not going to give anyone anymore second chances. i trusted you to stay, you lied. I may still be here physically, but lately I’ve been lost. still trying to come up with an answer that no one can figure out. i feel like changing ME will give me my answer. i suppose. I still hope you are happy living your best life even though I am not. bitter sweet ending to a tragic stupid story. there will be no name to your face , no name to this story. that will take all my energy and you don’t deserve that anymore.