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Pervert, Freak, Degenerate, Whore

@cum-villain

He/It if you don't know me | Call me Jason or Dimitri | Anti abuse, anti harrassment, anti purity culture. Always open to having a chat about stuff, just please send an ask before DMing me so I know you're not a bot! Certified Transandrophobia truther before it was cool.

i have a twitter now for some reason. @/qijiu79owo

First up my main names are Jason and Dimitri, though I'll answer to Jesse, Jace, James, Jay, Adam, Dimi, and Redd. I'm the prince of the royalty/braincell system and occasionally other parts appear.

I WILL NOT REBLOG DONATION POSTS.

Always ready to chat about Ainosuke Shindo (sk8), Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd (fe3h), Sylvain Jose Gautier (fe3h), Shen Jiu (svsss), Yue Qingyuan (svsss), Mike Wheeler (Stranger Things), and Jin Guangyao (mdzs).

he/it unless we're pals. then im he/she. Pro endo, proship, radpara, pro kink, radically inclusive. Who cares what others do as long as they don't hurt people (without consent).

Do not interact (by which i mean sending asks, talking to me on reblogs, etc. following likes and reblogging without comment is chill) if I'm on your dni. if you interact anyways then i will ignore your dni and interact back. also dni from porn blogs.

art blog is @braincell-art fic blog is @braincell-writings re main incorrect quotes sideblog is @re-main-incorrect-quotes, though I warn you I'm very inactive stranger things sideblog is @mike-wheeler-faggotry supernatural blog is @spn-my-beloathed-beloved pjo blog is @nico-di-angelos-attorney fe3h blog is @for-the-future-of-faerghus Rhys's sideblog is @voidling-with-a-spear Lyra's blog is @swan-in-shining-armor William's blog is @william-james-moriarty

Some tags I use are:

#braincell posting (personal tag) #braincell.reblog (reblog tag) #brainsys posting AND royalsys posting (system tags. why two? because we're indecisive.) #bpd posting (for when im posting about my bpd) #oh look an ask (asks tag) #clownon (hate anons) #nonnie (other anons) #trans man posting (for posting about being a trans man)

theres more but these are the main ones

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nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

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Please don't ask me for relationship advice unless you are prepared to receive some truly upsetting information because some people are ready for the "He's exhibiting the literal textbook signs of a psychological abuser and you need to get away from him before he successfully cuts you off from your support network" talk and some people aren't

just had the sickest thought about shen jiu does anyone wanna hear :3

ok so what if: shen jiu just. does not remember killing qiu jianluo.

like, in the book it's mentioned he went from 100 to 0 in a minute. shen qingqiu commends his "emotional fortitude" but like, what if it was his brain going "delete". ie dissociation, which led to dissociative amnesia.

you may say, "well, meng mo was able to access the memories in shen jiu's body!". well, repressed memories dont actually leave, its just that the brain stops a person from accessing them. technically yes, shen jiu would remember, but only in the sense his body would remember, not his conscious self. the old thing your brain forgets but your body remembers.

i do think shen jiu's memory being a little bit fucky would explain why the memory retrieval apparently wasnt able to get 100% of data. when shen jiu's body realized that those memories were being retrieved, it kicked into gear and tried to undo that.

Yeah! The System did so much, it created a whole world, with everyone's memories in it, and it just... glitched? How? Meng Mo said himself that memories being screwy could be the fault of the body itself, yet it's the super-powerful System that's blamed? I don't buy it.

And what you said about Shen Yuan becoming Shen Qingqiu affecting the body memories, I'm thinking specifically of Yue Qingyuan's face being forgotten. On one, it's possible that Shen Jiu tried to get rid of the memory of who Yue Qingyuan used to be, repressing that hurt, but it's also possible that when Shen Jiu left the body, he took his greatest obsession along with him. Only he's allowed to know what young Qi-ge's face looked like /j.

But also, I'm thinking of Luo Bingge's comment about Shen Qingqiu not remembering him. There wasn't a lot of time between the events, and both have to do with Shen Qingqiu not being able to remember something. I wonder if sometimes Shen Jiu, in pidw, would sometimes have episodes where he forgot things, and he forgot more and more until he finally died.

...Wait. Wait, we all know his mental breakdown after Yue Qingyuan died, right?

...What if he forgets that happened.

And through Bingge's POV this is maybe manipulation, maybe furthur proof of Shen Qingqiu being an uncaring bastard. But like. He genuinely does forget.

i just think being aro really enriches my perspective on life and makes me better, it makes me more aware of the value of my relationships with my family and friends, i’m so glad i found the aro community which constantly challenges my internalized amatonormivity and my relationships with the people in my life

i’m proud to be aro

just had the sickest thought about shen jiu does anyone wanna hear :3

ok so what if: shen jiu just. does not remember killing qiu jianluo.

like, in the book it's mentioned he went from 100 to 0 in a minute. shen qingqiu commends his "emotional fortitude" but like, what if it was his brain going "delete". ie dissociation, which led to dissociative amnesia.

you may say, "well, meng mo was able to access the memories in shen jiu's body!". well, repressed memories dont actually leave, its just that the brain stops a person from accessing them. technically yes, shen jiu would remember, but only in the sense his body would remember, not his conscious self. the old thing your brain forgets but your body remembers.

i do think shen jiu's memory being a little bit fucky would explain why the memory retrieval apparently wasnt able to get 100% of data. when shen jiu's body realized that those memories were being retrieved, it kicked into gear and tried to undo that.