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welcome to my brain

@cuddlebot7

•21, she/her, eclectic as fuck•

I think I want to start sharing my writings on here. I don’t post anything original anywhere and I’ve been wanting to get back into writing and sharing.

Themes will probably be

Introspection, mental health/illness commentary, social commentary, venting, and other stuff that comes up.

All under tag #personal and #vwrites

My toxic trait is that I truly believe I could win a fight against anybody if I was mad enough. U might have the strength and size but I have pure, unfiltered rage.

it might sound obvious, but i had to learn this the hard way: don't date someone who you feel you can't 100% be yourself around. maybe you can keep up shutting down 5-90% of yourself but 1) why would you want to 2) why should you have to when there's countless people out there who would love ALL of who you are

i'm saying this because i dated a guy who said we were being "healthy and open" by saying all our grievances. what that involved was any time i talked about something that i was passionate about he would shut it down with "babe, sorry i just wanna be honest, i don't care about this at all. sorry. love youuu <3" and i thought that was healthy for whatever reason.

now i'm with a guy who actively encourages me in my interests, even the ones he's previously uninterested/unfamiliar with. he doesn't just passively listen but asks questions and joins in with what i'm doing. some people might say this is a low bar to set but i wish someone had told me this when i was younger. pay attention to who's building you up and who's tearing you down.

literally 2 minutes after posting this and he proves my point <3

[I.D. screenshot of a text from alex that reads “tell my more about hummingbirds” /end I.D.]

being queer and seeing historical queer love is like a punch to the gut in a good way every time

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crying and sobbing crying and sobbing etc

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some more vintage photographs that make me weep and wail, now including trans people!

love is stored in the historical queer pictures

was in london a week ago and i saw a globe theatre production company of macbeth doing their vocal warmups and they were standing on stage and rhythmically shouting FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! at the top of their lungs in perfect unison for thirty seconds. so thats whats going on in the globe theatre these days. just thought yall should know

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remembering you have organs inside of you is so sickening like man i do NOT need to be fully aware of the fact that like. my appendix is just IN there. doing fuck all

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jinxed myself with this one bc my appendix decided Brother, I’m Going To Start Doing Something (Today) and now it’s gotta come out

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thanks to everyone who’s said any variation of “happy pride month to your appendix” in the tags. really appreciate that.