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“Birds are fed by their parents in their infancy. When the time comes to feed themselves, there can be some confusion when the food does not go into their mouth by itself.”

literally an ipad baby

(@hazelsmazecave)

remember if you care about mentally ill people at all:

no straitjackets for halloween

no "crazy person" costumes for halloween

no escaped psych ward patient for halloween

no whatever the fuck this is

were real people not scary characters to dress up as

What a lot of people think self-dxing is:

*sees a video of traits* I do that, so now I’m gonna call myself that

What it actually is:

*sees video or post about traits* oh hey I do that

*gets curious and looks it up* 

*denies having it cause “i don’t relate to this at all”* 

*realizes that they do, diagnostic criteria are just very ridged and don’t provide a lot of explanation* 

*maybe a breakdown or two*

*talks to friends who have it*

*laughing about this anxiety, only for the scary moment of “oh yeah no that sounds like *insert disorder here**

*talks to a therapist if able*

*talks to strangers who have it*

“Maybe it’s not this, maybe it’s this…”

*More research to try to prove themselves wrong*

*realizes all the childhood/teenage moments that should have been a red flag* 

“Well, all these other people have it like this, but mine is different, so I don’t have it!” “No, that’s still a trait/symptom, just less well know or less sensationalized”

*finally coming to terms that maybe you have it*

*depending on what the disorder is, fearing your social life is fucked*

And that’s that. I have never heard of a person going “haha I do that” and calling it a night. There’s always way more to it. 

people always act like there’s such a hard line between “psychotic person” and “normal person”, and I feel like that plays a lot into the dehumanization psychotic people face. cause once a nonpsychotic person internalizes this logic, suddenly we’re attractions and interesting and a fun research subject cause we’re just so fucking other that we become wholly unrelatable. for the nonpsychotic person, it’s unimaginable what psychosis must “really” feel like. so they treat us like a fictional species just trying to understand our existence. and they don’t worry about how their actions might affect us any more than they’d worry about insulting a vulcan by calling the vulcan thought process “just so interesting!”.

but in reality…. the difference between a psychotic person and a nonpsychotic person is not so stark. all human brains are prone to psychosis. all humans are capable of experiencing psychosis in one way or another. anyone could develop a full blown psychotic disorder at any time, no one is born immune to this. and while there’s some contexts in which it’s necessary to differentiate who does or doesn’t experience these symptoms of course, largely I think nonpsychotic people are doing themselves a disfavor - and being ableist in the process - by ignoring the hard truth of the matter: us psychotic people are exactly the same as them.

exploded.

if you don’t support people with ‘scary’ mental illnesses, you are not an ally.

you need to support people with ASPD

you need to support people with NPD

you need to support people with DID/OSDD

you need to support people with schizophrenia

you need to support people with psychosis

you need to support people with delusions

and so many more disorders that society has deemed scary, dangerous and/or bad.

legitimately what the fuck

i see reminders to take your meds all the time and thats great but heres your reminder to get your meds refilled! to call your pharmacy! to pick up your refills while the pharmacy is still open! you cant take whats not there, its super important that you stay on top of getting your refills

Got these insert for my boots- just lace them in, and your boots are now zip ups! Excellent for people like me with weak joints that struggle with laces but love boots!!

They have so many colours!!! Website is www.tongueties.co.uk

NOT A PAID ADVERT I JUST BOUGHT THEM AND LOVE THEM!!

Got these insert for my boots- just lace them in, and your boots are now zip ups! Excellent for people like me with weak joints that struggle with laces but love boots!!

They have so many colours!!! Website is www.tongueties.co.uk

NOT A PAID ADVERT I JUST BOUGHT THEM AND LOVE THEM!!

Saw an extremely good sign on the bus today

normal vs not normal: pain edition

normal: your knees/hips starting to twinge after climbing a big set of stairs

not normal: climbing stairs is hard for you, and you start to feel pain after a couple steps

normal: you wake up feeling pain after doing a lot of exercise the day before

not normal: you wake up feeling pain regardless of your activities the day before

normal: you are usually a zero on the pain scale

not normal: you cannot imagine what a pain scale zero would feel like

normal: when you experience pain, there is a direct reason for it, and it is able to be fixed with over-the-counter drugs (such as paracetamol)

not normal: you can’t figure out why you’re in pain, and taking over-the-counter painkillers doesn’t always work to fix it

normal: you do not spend most of your time in pain

not normal: you’ve spent most of your time in pain for over three months

if you experience pain regularly and for seemingly no reason, go to the doctor! you are not supposed to be in pain, and you deserve to find out what’s going on with your body!

I’m so angry at the number of people who have commented on my chronic pain posts like “I don’t have chronic pain so I don’t count but I do have chronic migraines-“

that’s chronic pain. that’s specifically the type of chronic pain I’m referring to.

and I’m absolutely not mad at those people, not in the slightest, but I’m furious at everyone and society as a whole that’s convinced them that they don’t count, that chronic migraines aren’t a genuinely debilitating form of chronic pain and disability.

migraines are chronic pain and have significant impacts on your life and you deserve to have that validated and not brushed off as “other people have it worse” or “not a real disability.”

the idea that people experiencing severe pain should be screaming, crying, flailing, and otherwise seeming to be in pain is largely unsupported by reality. is this a response that some people have to some kinds of pain? absolutely. should people who don't respond to pain in this way be dismissed or disbelieved? absolutely not.

ask anyone who deals with chronic pain. it would be exhausting to constantly project our pain in that way, and in some cases, it would make it worse. when i have a migraine, my voice becomes monotone and quiet, my movements slow down, and i don't emote much. this is my natural response to the pain, and doing helps me avoid making it worse.

i become that clip of captain holt saying, completely monotone with a deadpan delivery: "I am in... incredible pain." screaming, emoting, rapidly moving, even crying only make my pain worse. and when i'm experiencing a level of pain that would send abled people to the emergency room, the last thing i want to do is make it worse.

i shouldn't have to perform pain in order for you to believe me.

Nothing more punk than someone who is in pain all the fucking time and just continues to exist.

Edit: this isn't about random characters. This is about physically disabled people.

abled ppl who insist they aren't ableist are actually so chill with eugenics until you call it eugenics

"well offering euthanasia to people with disabilities who can't afford to live is–" eugenics. it's eugenics.

"why do disabled people have children? I mean they're just consigning them to this painful life–" eugenics <3

"but their quality of life is so reduced how can they justify bringing kids into–" ✨eugenics✨

"maybe medicine has advanced too far. I mean why are we keeping people with [insert condition here] alive when their quality of life–" EUGENICS

idc if you're ✨concerned✨ for my ✨quality of life✨ that's a) not your problem and b) something which could be improved by providing better accommodations for disabled ppl and making sure we have to deal with less ableist bullshit and ableist assholes like yourself.