My new workout idea evolved into more research which I then stumbled upon 3/7 method. This is my first solid week being regular at the gym so I'm still being careful.

I'll explain 3/7

Find a weight 70% on your one Rep max.

3 reps, rest 15 seconds

4 reps, rest 15 seconds

5 reps, rest 15 seconds

6 reps, rest 15 seconds

7 reps, rest 2 minutes and 30 seconds

Do that a total of 3 times.

I started it with leg day today.

My results first time trying this squats I could do 2 times, it blasted me.

Seated Leg curls I was able to do all 3.

Seated calf extentions I could do all 3.

Seated calf extentions I did 2 complete but I was wobbly and hitting my limit so I stopped and did my cool down stretch routine.

I started Saturday doing short warm up and super sets for my whole workout, I love that started at 25 minutes for my whole workout I was my lunch break so I had to be quick. Next day I did 41 minutes (including warm up and some quick stretching. The Monday I was so sore I took a day, Tuesday I did the supersets for 58 minutes including a warm up and stretching at the end. Today took 60 minutes with the warm up and stretching.

Maybe it's just having a different routine but damn it's exciting to be back at the gym. My girlfriend and I and also doing meal prep so that's been awesome to. I'm sitting around 210 lbs or 95 kgs or 15 stone. However you wanna calculate it. I'm average build/dad bod, I'm strong enough but no real show muscles, and my stomach is bigger than I want it but that's probably every average person's thoughts. I'm happy I can workout and I feel good that I'm starting strong again.

2 days in a row, not even an hour each time, one was on my lunch break and the other was my first early workout in awhile 😭💪

I did a fast cardio warm up 5 minutes the first day 10 minutes the second day, then the weight I did in super sets with no rest.

I'm exhausted now 😅 I couldn't sleep yesterday so I had 2 cannabis editables and 2 micro dose mushroom ediables.

My motivation wasn't there today but I did it. I started noticing someone smelling like garlic at the gym and I was going to stop cardio because of it, then I changed my mindset and I was like I'm not letting a smell effect my workout power through it and don't be a wimp it's only a smell and it wasn't that bad honestly 😅

Finished (almost) a new book called legends and lattes.

At the end there's like a 58 page how everything in the book came to be. Like a prolog. But I find myself distracted in my way of I wanna play a game, I wanna drink coffee I wanna read another book I want to workout I want to.... Etc but I can't just focus on one, I play a video game for a minute, my mind wanders, I get a couple paragraphs of the book my mind wanders and I'm read but my mind is somewhere else so I skip back a few paragraphs try again and then it happens again. I just want to focus, turn my brain to one thing.

I should figure out my life. Meanwhile my weekend off is going nice besides my crohn's making me feel like I've eaten fire 😅

A day off spent right.

We changed the oil in my girlfriend's car, got all her lights working, she's be short a couple running lights and a couple brake lights. One of the front running lights on her car and my car are out but omg there is no way to access them. I've checked youtube and looked under and behind everything it seems like you'd have to have a special tool or take the front of the car off... Headlights are good so we'll leave them for now. 😅

We bought an air filter at Canadian Tire because the oil change place was double. And air filters are easy. I bought all new seat covers and a rear pet seat cover which in hindsight I should have purchased years ago. Dogs ruin cars 😅.

We both started cleaning the insides of our cars when we got home. My car is a lot cleaner in general so it was quick but I put a vinyl dressing on and washed the glass. The trip to my sisters will feel nice, even though I kind of just want to stay home and play video games.

I'm eating healthy and working out for like 2 weeks now I kind of want to just lock in and go with it. Ride the motivation. Oh well playing on a farm will be good for my daughter and it might be nice for my mental health.

After Thursday Ive been taking eating slow. It's weird the things that are easy on my guts, cookies, chips, coke. I took a pepper in my lunch again that was fine, which I'm glad about. I do like veggies.

Today was my first day I went to the gym. It feels good to go I was making up excuses all day to not go but I just went. Even after being in the door I was like I don't want to, then I was in the bathroom for 10 minutes I'll just go home. Then I got changed, picked a cardio machine and said I'll do a slow warm up 5 minutes in I was like I should just leave then I upped to a run for a couple minutes. Got 10 minutes in and I was like that's not bad but I made myself go pats 25 minutes and made it to 27 minutes still just making myself run on and off ready to go home. But 27 minutes is a start and I feel sore. I can do it. I love routine.

I've already lost weight before the gym so I'm liking how I look better. I hope to lose a good amount of weight before Japan. We're going to be walking a lot I'm sure, and I don't want to be slowed down by being out of shape and being a crohnie 😅

Emergency Room visit last night.

I usually avoid the ER as it's very rarely helpful. Last night my stomach hurt so bad from a blockage or a twist or something I felt an ER visit was needed. I went in at 11pm, I saw the triage nurse, she ordered labs, asked my pain level which was 7 with spikes to 9. I sat there in the most uncomfortable chairs, sometimes laying on the floor, gross I know but it hurt and was so uncomfortable, I had to keep moving around. Finally around 4:30am the pain had past.

I told them I was going home and I called a cab. My girlfriend had brought me and called in to look after our daughter. But daughter was sleeping so I told girlfriend to stay since I wanted our daughter to keep sleeping.

At home I drank two Gatorade slowly, a bit of pain but nothing that stopped me sleeping. I woke at 11, made mt green drink, coffee and my normal breakfast of a Tortilla with peanut butter Nutella and a banana. Some chamomile tea after breakfast. It's 3:30pm now and no pain as of yet. Things must have worked themselves out. I plan on soup for dinner and lots of liquids. I'll take it easy for the next few days. Avoiding raw veggies or cutting back is probably prudent.

Day after injection day, my stomach is unhappy, but just from cramps which isn't my normal. I'm sleepy but it's my day off, I should do more dad things but my tummy isn't on board.

I played some skyrim during naptime I regret not napping but whatever.

It's been about a week and a half of eating a ton of raw veggies everyday. This morning when I went to make my lunch I only had half a pepper and carrots of fresh veggies, not to be stopped I raided the cupboard and found a jar of dill pickles and a jar of pickled beets. I also had a chicken leg and a protein bar.

I skipped my Imodium this morning so that's making for extra bathroom trips today. 8+ so far.

I wish a diet could fix my excessive bathroom trips.

I'm going to try fasting when I get some time to figure it out. If I can manage a couple days without food that should mean a couple days without using the bathroom. Temporary relief would be nice.

Just breathe through the rage.

Relationships, work, living is just hard. Girlfriend is mad she has to ask me to move my car if I'm parked behind her like I'm just supposed to remember everything.

Work is hard when they want results but won't let me have the hours for my people, or help me cross train them, or hire them.

Lunch is packed I'm here I'll click in and get stuff done.

Lunch/supper

Second week of tons of veggies starting strong.

1/3 of a cucumber, bunch of cauliflower, one red pepper, snap peas, one chicken breast, cottage Cheese with raspberries, a banana, and ranch for dipping. I'm challenging myself to use less ranch. The protein bar is just in case I get snacky 😅

I still have half a chicken breast and a ton of veggies after eating lunch. And I'm soooo full.

For breakfast I have a wrap with peanut butter and Nutella with a banana chopped up, and coffee.

I'm sitting low for calories but I'll probably have some cake or chips that I forget about. I'm not stressed about it.

5 days of taking the green powder and eating a giant plate full of veggies everyday along with cutting back but eating normal foods and I feel energized.

I did a couple home workouts this week, probably not more than 20 minutes each.

I switched my lunch kit to a bigger cooler I have today because of so many veggies, I've also been eating lots of ranch because it's tasty and I like it.

I've noticed stomach cramps more because raw veggies do that to me but it's only uncomfortable not bad, I'm hoping I adapt. Eating out less, picked up Wendy's the other day for my girlfriend and just got myself a salad instead of a burger, fries and a diet pop. Better choice for me.

I would love to do raw vegan but I'm not even close to trying that. I'm just enjoying veggies and fruit without putting any pressure on myself for more.

At 41 I'm finally applying for a passport with the intension to travel to Japan.

I've never travelled outside of Canada besides once as a teenager we went to Montana, which obviously doesn't count the only difference between Canada and the states was Walmart had more guns than every store in my home town. And supersizing at McDonald's was comicly giant fries and pop.

So Japan will be amazing. Even if I just go there and walk around Tokyo the whole time it'll be great, but we plan to see a lot. My buddy is coming with me. I'm going to try to budget hard so I can just enjoy and not stress about money.

I'm going to see shrines and towns and try foods, but mostly I wanna focus on just being there instead of spending money.

I'm really excited!

Fun update.

I was feeling sick so I played skyrim, it gives me a mental boost. I find it motivating for life.

I've been taking more time to eat healthier, avoiding eating out alone, we still do it as a family probably once to twice a week.

This last week I went on a vegetable kick, I took a 1/3 of a Cucumber, a bell pepper and a big handful of snap peas, for my lunch, and even dinner once or twice and a few Costco protein bars for snacks.

I still have to take 4+ Imodium a day, my stomach symthoms still give me bad days. But I feel a little bit more accomplished and that makes me happier.

I also looked into athletic greens the really expensive green powder, then I just grabbed another green powder for half the price and no subscription that I figured would be ok to try. It just arrived today it tastes ok and ifs full of vegetable nutrients and such. I'll see if I keep that going and see if it is helpful or just gives me cramps.

In the spirit of eating better and self improvement I was making my daughter laugh by doing sqwats with her on my shoulders and today my legs are burning like I did a hard workout. So today I got out my bands and just did a couple sets messing around. Maybe I can make workouts at home a regular thing.

My weight hasn't changed I don't think I just weighed myself for a baseline and I'm at 214lbs the same I've been for awhile. I'm starting to feel happy with myself even if I haven't lost weight.

I bought a cologne and I like it, my girlfriend hasn't commented on it but she apparently doesn't smell things. And her and I aren't close really, we have a kid and we coexist, but she doesn't ever say anything nice about me and when I hug her she wants me not to and if I go for a kiss it's just a quick Peck. So I just feel like we're roommates and if I try to talk about it it doesn't go well. I'm kind of starved for love but I can't do much about it. C'est la vie.

A rare treat today I took over the tv for some skyrim action, only kinda envious of my friends with the new zelda game 😅, Gotta say skyrim holds up as pure fun. I'm not even playing modded.

Single player games are my jam because crohn's has been kicking my ass lately, glad of the pause button.

When I feel bad I like to immerse myself into another world when it takes enough focus off how I feel it's a relief.

Anyway I feel awful today going from chilled to overheating. I'm going to hopefully sleep ok.

Life just feels so hard then I sleep for 3 hours and everything is just better enough.

I think the difference between murder and acceptance is a 3 hour nap.

Being angry is just how I feel now, I don't like it. I just wanna stab myself in the throat so I can stop being angry already.

Work life sucks

Home life sucks

Health sucks.

I can't relax at all.

Dental work today, 2 days ago I was getting pain behind my jaw, mentioned it to my dentist who noticed my tonsil on one side was swollen, so now I'm at the clinic waiting for a walk in. It might be a pain if I need antibiotics since my injection is in 10 days 😅 I'll worry about that when I have to no need to stress out.

I woke up early on my day off, now I'm in the clinic, only on 4 hours sleep. Hopefully I can get a nap later.

I've been reflecting and thinking and I'm going to try vegetarianism. In 2003-8 I was vegetarian and I felt pretty good, of course that was post surgery and I felt better than ever. It's going to be a struggle, the big help will be I'll avoid most fast food, which is always helpful for anyone. The results of my test were defeating, because feeling bad has always been because of crohn's, hearing that I don't have active crohn's at least where they can see means maybe if I work hard at it I might just feel ok.

I'm still going to use up the free bacon I got the other day, and I have some tuna in the cupboard. Maybe I'll just stay vegetarian when I eat out so I can ease my family into it.

No sleep after being sedated is like a hangover, running on 2 hours and now heading to work and my girlfriend is already talking about a nap when I get home.

I just hate everything when I don't get sleep, I thought about kicking a toddler today, hey I didn't I just thought about it, I also thought about dying.

I worked all weekend except only coming home early to be on the safe side, I still did more around the house than my girlfriend who had 3 days off. Yes her back hurts a lot but she's still went to work all night last night gave it her all.

I need some fucking support or someone to kill me, either way I'm ok with it all.

Lack of sleep and being sedated today just has destroyed my emotional stability. I'm lathargic, then I'm happy, then I'm crying over having to do dishes and be alive. Hating everything to loving everything.

I should be committed, but I have too much I have to avoid doing.