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I Dont Promote Drug Use , But Its My Blog Where I Vent And Share Stuff I Relate To And Been Through And What Not. In Recovery(Heroin, Methadone maintenance,Methamphetamine)
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Meth may not seem so addicting when you first try it. Your probably wondering to yourself why people claim this drug is so “addicting”. Yeah the come down may suck but it aint nothing you cant handle. The next few times you try it your wondering why people say your always “chasing that first high” cause your getting high as fuck, just like the first time you aint chasing shit, this drug aint so bad. STOP. Right there. Do not be fooled by the devil in disguise. Meth is a sneaky little bitch. Pretty soon you will have to use just to get up and do anything. To feel “normal” . No your not gonna die without it. The come downs still arent that bad.But when your not high you feel so lost and confused. Because you dont find happiness in anything, meth,made you loose yourself. You dont no who you are any more and you get so frustrated trying to figure it out. Your embarrassed at the person you have become and how others treat you and look down on you and so now all you wanna do is get high so you dont have to give a fuck. 

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Addiction is not pretty girls sniffing cocaine on glass tables in low-cut dresses and drinking expensive liquor that you cant even pronounce. Addiction is not a “quirk” that you can add to characters in your fan-fiction, to make them tragedy. Addiction is that feeling of relief when your paycheque comes in, even if its supposed to pay your rent. Addiction is watching your face hollow out, following suit with your mind. Addiction is telling your friends and family that it’s “just allergies”, even though you have sounded stuffed up all-year round. Addiction is that look of disapproval and pity the volunteers at the drug clinic give you, as you throw your used needles into that yellow bio-hazard box, and reluctantly take a pack of 10 new clean ones. Addiction is sitting in 7 day detox programs, writing out a 90 day recovery plan, and praying that you can actually stick to it. Praying. Addiction is lies. Addiction is feelings of shame. Drugs were supposed to be fun. They used to help you break down those social barriers, although ironically enough, now you couldn’t care less if you didn’t see another person ever again for the rest of your life. On the inhale. You feel your heart pump faster. Your blood speeds through your system. You feel feelings of euphoria you didnt know were possible. On the exhale. You realize thats another $50 dollars gone. You remember that thing you had to do yesterday that you slept through. You remember the cracking in your mothers voice when you picked up the phone and told her you weren’t coming home again. You remember what you had. You remember what you lost. Drugs can take you to other worlds, much different than our own. But they will never take you to a world that mirrors what life was like before.

“Writing And Other Drugs” by Chris Manchester (writingandotherdrugs)

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oxypopping
Drugs don’t turn us into different people; They bring out parts of us we never knew were there. They bring out the person we already were.

You’re capable of doing anything if the mindset is right. (oxypopping)

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We live in an age where we feel guilt whenever we have to cut someone off but the reality is that some relationships do need to die, some people do need to be unfollowed and defriended. We aren’t meant to be this tethered to the people in our past. The Internet mandates that we don’t burn bridges and keep everyone around like relics but those expectations are unrealistic and unhealthy. Simply put, we don’t need to know what everyone else is up to. We’re allowed to be choosy about who we surround ourselves with online and in real life, even if it might hurt people’s feelings.

Ryan O’Connell, You Don’t Have To Be Friends With Everybody (via thequotejournals)

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You can be shaped, or you can be broken. There is not much in between. Try to learn. Be coachable. Try to learn from everybody, especially those who fail.

David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest (via books-n-quotes)

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I love drugs even tho they aren’t loyal to me You can see my love for you layered in puns poems songs and when you’re in my veins I never shout your name in vain I was promised balloons and to be fed with silver spoons Broken trust made me question us But on my darkest days I stop by the ATM and you’re there for me In crowd of millions I feel alone Even tho they aren’t loyal to me I love drugs, as if it were my first born But now I’m broke with no hope this is beginning to feel like the dawn Of losing you forever

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I kept a distance from you, not because of the miles but because of the damage I knew you’d end up doing to my heart. you were in dangerous waters I shouldn’t have explored. But yet no matter how much I tried to convince myself that I could not get attached, you broke my walls. You became my drug, and I became addicted. You gave me a feeling that was better then every good mood I ever had put together that lifted me higher then ever before. You left me craving so much more, only to be let down by waves of disappointment and anger. I wanted you all to myself, I thought you were mine. You said you were mine. You put into my head that I was special and you needed me too. But you lied didn’t you?

18 year old needing rehabilitation (via unexpressd)

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I don’t want to fall in love anymore, I feel like I’m constantly repeating myself; telling people my favourite songs, showing them my favourite movies and TV shows, my favourite colour, places I like to visit, just everything. And I’m tired of repeating myself, I don’t have the energy anymore. I want someone who already knows that a particular song is my favourite because it makes me cry happy tears, I want someone who knows that this movie is my favourite, because one of my earliest memories was watching it as a kid, when we were still a family. I don’t want to give people parts of me only for them to become a stranger again, It’s not fair. I’m tired

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You’ll end up disappointed if you think people care for you the way you care for them, nobody has a heart like you do. The the best way to avoid disappointment is to not expect anything from anyone. Fall in love with actions, not words. Don’t fall in love with ideas and thoughts instead of reality, it will be the death of you. Don’t be that person to be nice and apologize when you did nothing wrong, never make unworthy people a priority in your life. You deserve someone who actually gives a fuck about you, because you’ve spent your whole like making other people happy when all they did was leave and nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the person you thought would never hurt you, it’s funny how we let 1 single person disappoint us 1000 times. It’s like we all have this perfect picture in our minds of how things are supposed to be and that’s why we all end up being disappointed.

I have to stop getting my hopes up for things that will never happen. (via confessing-emotions)

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Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone It’s not warm when she’s away Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone And she’s always gone too long Anytime she goes away

Ain’t no sunshine Bill Withers (via breathingdopamine)