violet

I had a bad day at work yesterday.

My mom told me I should smile more and make myself more likeable. She thinks I'm in one of my depressing moods again. I didn't say anything to her at all.

Today at work we're celebrating one of my coworkers birthday. I'm not really looking forward to it because I'm kinda a introvert. I just don't like to be around a crowd. I just hope no one tries to make me eat or whatever.

Where I keep my thoughts

You know that I'd just die to make you proud

I listen to a lot of different kinds of music, but lately I've been listening to Nirvana, indie or alternative music.

Everything is going to be ok

Yeah 🥰

I feel misunderstood by my family.

I don't think my sister understands that some people deal with their mental health differently. She thinks that you should just suck it up and get over it. I don't know how to feel about that. Anyways I finally got to watch Requiem For A Dream and I was not disappointed.

Don't get me wrong I love being an a identical twin, but sometimes I feel like my sister is just perfect. I can't help, but want to be like her in some ways. We both work together and I feel like she does the job better than me. Sometimes I feel like the ugly duckling or the messed up sister. Sorry I'm just ranting about my life it's just I have no friends to open up to.

I want to start a YouTube channel or whatever, but I don't know. I'm not really good with expressing myself sometimes and I kinda think talking about it would help. I also want to sing, but I'm not even sure if I'm good at it. It's just something I've thinking about lately.

Life hasn't been feeling good lately. I don't know I guess I thought things would get better, but things just keep getting worse. Anyways I hope everyone is doing well.

My anxiety is killing me

I miss the old me

Cigarettes

She was everything I wasn't. She was perfect.

We were just too young

I'm hiding behind a mask