books-n-quotes
“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”
— Nikita Gill, Almost Feelings (via books-n-quotes)
Source: booksnquotes.com
what i’m trying to say is i still miss you with everything i have and i still wake up in the morning with the intentions of telling you how badly i’m still in love with you but i know you don’t care you don’t care you don’t care so i guess that means i’ll drink my tears away until i seem to bleed out of my lungs the words of the last time you said you gave a damn when you were begging me to stay and i should’ve listened but i don’t i never do and you know that and i don’t want to blame this on you because you couldn’t have made me stay but god i wish you would’ve shown me what i would’ve lost but i think you tried and i’m just too oblivious and i miss you i miss you and i think i’m going to scream it on the highway because lately i’ve been finding myself back at the places we first fell in love and everyone carries little pieces of you but they aren’t fucking you and i can’t fall in love with anyone else i’m trying, ive been trying so damn hard but when you give your all to someone like that you can’t just move on, you can’t just forget god i miss you and i wish i believed in religion so i could pray to god i could stop waking up crying and shaking because you aren’t there and you never will be again because i physically can’t regain the chemicals in my body to stop missing you and i don’t think you know how godforsaken genuinely happy you made me just by saying you missed me when you hadn’t seen me in a day and you were my biggest supporter, my best friend, my first anything, my worst heartbreak, my biggest fear and everything hurts and i think i’m numb again and i can’t stop fucking crying i love you so much i can’t breathe this is awful and i feel like i’m drowning but i’m not in water, and there are hundreds of people around me and i think i can see it; they’re laughing, breathing, talking and i can’t say a word and my lungs are overflowing water and im choking on my own apologies. a paradox, isn’t it? my heart drops and i can see it beating in my stomach but i cant hear it in my ears and i can hear the waves rushing and all i can do is try and kill my mind to stay the fuck alive. i fell in love and it filled my soul with flowers. but eventually, seasons change and flowers fucking die. so tell me you love me in the summer just to fade away in the winter because the truth is today is never going to be the same tomorrow, but you’ll still be the same and i’m still going to love you, i’m still going to miss you
what i wish i could tell you.
I LOVE THAT THEY KEEP PICKING UP MORE OMG
One of my fav videos on the internet
pietropeterimagines
Omg I saw the first one when I was at comic con!
and here you are, continuing on, despite how hard it’s been
“Losing you wasn’t just painful, it was fucking damaging also. It wasn’t me sitting down on a couch surrounded by my friends as we watched movies and ate food to try and forget you. It was me staying up at four in the morning because the thought of you was so fucking strong I couldn’t even close my eyes without seeing your face. It was me swallowing thickly and blinking back tears every time I was in public, the hole in my chest causing my breaths to come out shaky rather than normal. It was me laughing at things for no reason as my stomach turned because the urge of falling apart was getting stronger. It was me crying at random hours during the day and me not wanting to get up out of bed. It wasn’t just me staring blankly at your number, deciding wether or not if I should call you. It was me throwing my phone at the wall and breaking it, because I was drunk again and the thought of you ever changing your information terrified me. It was me deleting our conversations and regretting it because now I couldn’t know where we had went wrong. It fucking hurt, losing you had hurt and I wasn’t ever able to forget that kind of pain.”
— A.M.// getting over someone is horrible (via tullipsink)
